Riele-
The back of my throat burned as I swallowed against the lump forming in it. I was flipping through an old photo album found in my closet. Memories I shoved to the side. All of the things I wanted to forget. I paused at the page of Jace and I, our arms wrapped around each other. Our wide eyes and innocent smiles, adore we knew we liked each other. Before we knew what liking someone was really about. on the set of Henry Danger. I missed that show. My first major acting gig. I missed acting. I stopped after the show, only taking smaller projects here and there. I missed Dan and Nathan. Sean and Cooper, Ella.
Then I don't. The momories attached to them make me ache. Aching is exhuasting, so I hide them away. Near the end of shooting our last episode, Jace asked me to get a burger with him. One thing led to another and his tongue was coiling against mine, in his car later that night. I told myself not to fall for him, of course that was never the case. We were together for 3 months almost 4. Then I noticed he was changing. Rapidly. Not texting or calling me as often. Letting my voicemails pile up, blowing off our dates, altogether rejecting my love. Then he called it quits for us and I've never felt the same since then.
Ella tried to tell me it wasn't my fault, but I knew it was. I slapped the photo album closed and let my head dive into the palms of my hands as I began to sob. Loud, painful, sobs causing my entire body to shake. I think I'm drowning for a moment. It feels like there's an iron fist squeezing my heart. If I wasn't curious about what I did to drive him away, I wouldn't be thinking about him right now. Thunder rattled my apartment. I look up, sniffing. I think I'll just go to bed.
...
Jace -
Her hands moved restlessly beneath my shirt as I squeezed her ass in both of my hands, moving backwards to the bed. She bit down on my lip and moaned quietly, ripping at the belt around my waist and pushing me down onto the comforter with a force that excited me. I was burning up, slowlt from the inside out. She crawled on top of me and slipped her shirt off, tossing her waves of perfect dark hair to one side as she leaned down to lick my neck and grind her hips against my waist. I groaned and rolled over onto her, working my jeans down I heard a tiny click and her bra was off in seconds. She snaked her arms around my neck and breathed heavily into my ear.
"Oh, Jace maybe you're not ready yet."
"Yes, I am!"
"But what about-"
"Fuck... No more talking."
I covered her mouth with my left hand and kissed my way down her body while groping one of her breasts. I closed my eyes and Indulged myself into her moans and slick, hot skin.
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Riele -
The hot water in the shower pelted against my skin. I stood there under the water, dragging in each breath. Early mornings were getting harder to bear. I hated getting out of the warmth and security of my covers. I wasn't finished licking my wounds. I know I need to get over this. It's time for me to move on. I lifted my face to the water and it stings, but I don't move. I remain frozen under the downpour and don't get out until I feel it run cold and I'm shivering.
Ella called while I was in the shower. I listened to her voicemail while I got dressed, but I didn't return any of her messages. Ella was like a sister to me, but I can't bring myself to talk to her. I skipped breakfast and grabbed a bottle of water on my way out the door. I was almost late for an audition to be a featured model for the Teen Vogue Summer Bash campaign. Outside, everything is gray and cold, but the weather should clear up soon. It always does in California. I walked down the street and slipped that bottle of water into my tote.
