Facing the sick truth (3DG/MDD) *On Hold*

Chapter 18

I woke up to the sun light streaming through a crack in the curtains, landing directly in my right eye.

My face felt extremely heavy and my eyes felt puffy. then I remembered... he was gone. and it was all my fault.

I stumbled into the lounge, still in my clothes that I wore yesterday.

"Hey, how ya feeling?" Barry asked getting up to hug me. I just pushed him away and grabbed my pajama pants and singlet sitting on the couch. I then waked outside and into the forest beside the busses.

I changed into my pajamas and sat on a smooth tree trunk. there was a small birds nest sitting about three feet away from me with two eggs in it.

A bigger bird came along, which I'm guessing was the mom, and sat on the each of the nest. it leaned in and regurgitated some bugs. I was confused at first but then I saw three little beaks stick up and eat them. aww the eggs had already cracked! an And then, right there, I smiled.it was such an easy life for them. just flying around, resting in a nest of straw all day.

A heard some twigs snap and footsteps nearing me. then a hooded figure neared me.

"Jason?!" I exclaimed. but then the figure knocked the nest off and I instantly knew it was Matt.

"Ally-"

"Ugh you dumb bloody FUCK!" I screamed whacking in the face and running away.

"Ally seriously! you can't live like this all your life!" Matt yelled after me.

" I can and I bloody will!" I screamed over my shoulder.

~3 days later~

We had been driving for three days straight. that's all. and all I had done was sit on the window seat and stare out the window at the passing cars.

I jumped when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and looked into the beautiful eyes of the one and only Matt walst.

"Can I talk to you?" he sighed. he had asked me this every 8 hours.

"Yes" I said quietly looking down and although I wasn't looking at him, I could instantly feel his face light up.

He sat in front of me and reached for my hand. I didn't pull away, so he knew he had my trust for the moment. But to be honest, it wasn't that I trusted him right now at all, it was that I didn't have the energy to do anything.

"Ally, im really sorry" Matt started "i really am and i never meant for him

To commit suicide"

I looked into his beautiful eyes as tears Fell down my cheeks.

"Its not your fault! I was the only one hurting him! I was the one that cheated on him! it's my fault!"

"No ally stop! I didn't stop you from cheating! I should have if I knew it was gonna be like this! I cut your wrists while you were sleeping! I punched you and left you at the bottom of the stair case! I have every right to be sorry! I love you ally and I don't wanna see you like this!"

I just burst into tears at that point. I couldn't help it it when he was blaming himself for all the things i have coursed! like I've said before, I was always taught that everything was my fault!

Matt crawled over to me and wrapped his arms around my body as I continued to cry onto his shoulder.

"Remember this feeling?" I choked out.

"Uh-huh, and I miss it too" he whispered.

~Dougs POV~

I managed to peek around the corner and see Ally crying in Matts arms. I just wanted to take a million photos.