It is dark in the hallway. So dark I literally can't see anything. Matt's hand in mine he is leading me and I follow him almost tripping on something on the ground. I see a door. The light from the backstage gleams from underneath the door.
Dom saw us. The fact is inevitable. How can I now act like nothing is happening when actually so much is happening? What is going to happen? What might Matt be thinking? Is this even acceptable? My head says it is. For fuck's sake we are both responsible, single adults. Why am I feeling so unconfident again? A minute ago we were making out, and I told him to take my shirt off. Did I actually want him? Do I want him now? I can't get any sense into this. Now what is going to happen is that we are going to see Dom, Chris, Morgan and Tom, at least. Matt seems confident. He is still willing to take me to backstage even though Dom saw us making out. Does this mean...
We enter the room. Right away I feel like nothing is going to happen, at least not for now. The atmosphere is welcoming, not awkward, not a bit.
"Heyy Felicity!" Dom exclaims. He is sitting on a brown leather couch. Then he smirks at Matt.
"Hey Matt."
I can't help but smile.
"Can I offer you a beer or something? Tea?" Dom asks.
"Yeah, tea would be nice, thanks" I say and Dom jumps up the sofa and puts the kettle on.
Chris enters the room.
"Guys we should get going... Oh, we have a guest?" Chris stops. He stares at me surprised for a second.
"Yes, this is Felicity" Matt introduces me to Chris, since I am still in some kind of a shock. The evening has been such an emotional rollercoaster that I am overwhelmed.
"Hello Felicity" Chris says shaking hands with me. My legs are spaghetti.
"Poor thing lost her wallet and can't get back home. Me and Dom told her that we'll take care of her" Matt says so cutely with an affectionate smile on his face that I nearly collapse (My legs are still spaghetti).
Dom gives Chris a specific look, referring to me and Matt having a thing, and in a few seconds a little confused Chris gets it.
"Ahh, yeah we'll take care of you, yes definitely. Losing your wallet is bad. Very bad. You must live far away then" Chris says scratching his beard. He sounds so funnily nervous and I know it's because he got it. I chuckled.
"Chris, can you make me a cup of tea too?" Matt asks after Chris started to fix tea for me.
When we all sit down on the sofas, I can tell by the look on Dom's face that he's about to ask something about me and Matt. I don't necessarily feel embarrassed, I just really want to have some time alone with Matt again.
Both Chris and Dom wanted tea too so now we are all sitting on the sofas, me and Matt facing Chris and Dom.
"So guess what Chris?" Dom says after sipping some tea and clicks his tongue.
"Five minutes ago I saw these two making out" he says pointing at us.
Again I feel like a fire truck, my head heats up from the blushing-feeling. Chris' jaw drops. Matt chuckles so liberatedly that it infects me and I start laughing too.
After that Matt does something so cute that I nearly can't bear it. He pats my knee.
"Yeah, that's what we did."
Chris scratches his beard again with a significant smile on his face.
"So guys, should I ask what is your plan, you two?" Dom smirks. He knows that he put us in a difficult position having to answer that and that's was his intention. But I have just the answer for him, the best part being not having to say anything because suddenly all my inhibitions fade away. I feel like home in this small backstage that smells like tea and sweat. I come closer to Matt, we have been sitting quite far away from each other on the sofa, so I lift my bare legs over Matt's legs and show my big smile before sipping some tea.
"You two seem to like each other" Dom says. He got me. Dom and Chris look amused and they don't seem to care at all. Matt turns his head to right and looks me in the eye lifting his eyebrow and places his other hand on my knee.
This feeling of happiness fills me completely.
I can't help wondering what Chris and Dom are actually thinking about this. Do I look underaged? In my opinion I look pretty young, especially in these clothes. They might think I'm only 16 or something. But then again they seem so chill about the fact that we're here sitting so close to each other. It's intended. That's what Matt said to me. Does this mean...
"Okay, so the plan is this: me and Chris go get the rest of the stuff and you guys can chill here, just put the kettle away and wash these mugs, OK? We're leaving for the hotel soon" Dom's voice interrupts my line of thought. The guys chatted a little while drinking their teas and my thought had already got distracted.
"Yeah, we'll handle that" Matt nods.
Dom and Chris leave the room. For a moment it's silent. We stay still. Our eyes meet. We hold our breaths. And then, as if we had planned it, our lips collide violently. His empty tea mug against my back when he strokes my back, not wanting to break the contact, my hands on his cheeks, making their way to the back of his head, lightly grabbing his hair. His kiss tastes like vanilla, hence the vanilla tea we just drank. But the kiss is anything but light. We are eating each other like people who have craved for this contact for so long. This contact, the feeling of being one with the other. It's been some time indeed.
We didn't say anything. We don't need words. The bodies speak for themselves. I break the kiss to catch my breath. We both are panting as if we had just run a mile. The panting turns into laughter as the situation is confusing us both. Me sitting in his lap, we both still holding our tea mugs. All we can understand is that we have this strong feeling.
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Heyyy
It's been a long time but the fifth part is here!
-hypermonday
