If I were to end it all right here and right now, we could all be free. I could be free from the thoughts in my head. Thoughts that tell me it's my fault that we didn't say goodbye, it's my fault she won't be there for her. It's my fault that I'm failing at everything now. It's my fault they ignore me most of the time. It's my fault that we barely have money. It's my fault that she always screams. It's my fault that we all feel sad.
But if I end it now they won't have to feel sad anymore. I could just disappear and everything would be okay. Yes they would all be sad for a while but they would get over it. If I end it now they could all forget about me and stop worrying. They could make whatever choices they want to. Without having to worry how it would affect me. They could use the money for anything else besides me. They could be free from me.
If I end it all now I could see her again. I can talk to her again. I could be with her again. I could watch over them and protect them. I could do more than I do now... If I end it. Right here and Right now, it could all be over.
-Written June 4th, 2016
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