Halos of chemical swirls,
My lungs so damped by immense hatred
Glowing dusk, gray grounds
Summer's chill
haunting depression over my shoulders
My inner voice repeats I'm unfulfilled
Fireflies scatter like the thoughts crossing my mind
From the beginning of it all to the end
Where exactly do I fall?
Flat into the pits down under
Dreams unaccomplished,
Never lead myself and felt awarded
Trapped inside a valley between steep mountains
Unescapable from the shadows
Disinterest in pure potential
Wondering what's ahead
I have no answer
Smile outrageously,
making someone else's day
Wonder what ever could be wrong,
Let them know it's all okay
I never believed that
Locked myself out of my heart
And let the past eat me from inside out
Paranoid for my future breaths
Every step I'll take
To an unknown destination
Listen to others words,
Having none of my own to say
Glance for distractions
Open windows, opposite direction
The clementine clouds dissipate,
sunshine sets away,
Another day gone
Questioning again and again
When am I going to feel whole,
Burst out amongst silhouette skylines
Unwilling strength
Souls that were not empathetic
Obvious to my hurting
Days of sorrow weakness,
Broke me more and pretended I didn't seem dead
Remain uncured, they don't try to see
What exactly they have done to me
I smile again,
Echoing heartfelt laughter
And act like I am the happiest I ever been
But how could I ,
When I see no worth in my own reflection
