She Who Saved Me.

On one knee

I didn't text back, I couldn't' make my hands do it. Instead I sank down into the couch and threw the blanket over my head. My stomach was screaming at the top it's lungs. I closed my eyes tight and prayed for it all to go away.

I held that position for who knows how long until I drifted back off to sleep. It was a sleep that rocked and held me. I relaxed into it and I was thankful for it later.

Later, when I woke up my muscles ached in pain. I realized that was because of my safety position from earlier. Looking around I saw Jamie sitting in the recliner chewing on a sandwhich. God I feel so bad, I keep sleeping and she had to get food for herself.

"Hey there. You just kind of passed out under the blanket so I let you be. I hope you don't mind but I fixed myself some supper," She said gesturing to her sandwhich. At her words my stomach rumbled, when was the last time I ate?

Wait what time is it? I asked her, "What time is it?" I searched for my phone remembering what Eli had said. Would he still come over even though I didn't reply? Well of course he would my common sense screamed at me.

She clicked a phone on and said," About six thirty. Oh yeah I hope your not mad but your phone was going nuts so I checked it. I thought maybe it could be your mom and I wanted to be able to tell her you were okay. I did stop Andy from charging over though. And this Eli guy is coming over.. He seems kind of mad. I was hoping you'd sleep through seven."

"You what!?" I screamed losing my mind. First she touched my phone and second Eli would be here very soon. My mind was running through so many horrible scenarios. Although I couldn't help but wonder when was the last time anyone had been able to be within a foot of my phone.

I pushed myself up and ran for the kitchen. But then I stopped and looked back at Jamie. She looked frightened and I instantly felt bad. It wasn't her fault, she had no way of knowing. She geniunely was waiting for my mom or someone to call. And thank god she stopped Andy or he could be here when Eli got here. God! Eli is coming.

"Jamie come on," I said walking up the stairs.

She didn't need to meet him and be associated with me in his eyes. Like Andy he could probably find a way to hurt me by using her. I ran for my room all the way down the hall. I would have to hide her. Or maybe not if she were here he would be nice and civil.

Jamie wondered into my room in behind me still obviously scared at my outburst. I ran into my bathroom and started to revamp my sleepy look. I looked the Bride of Frankenstein which made me crack up a little.

While reapplying eyeliner I told her, "I'm sorry I yelled at you like that I really didn't mean to I just was in shock."

I finished and decided I looked okay enough and walked over to where she was sitting on my bed. I bit my lip ignoring my stomachs arguements with what was about to happen.

I chose my words carefully, "That guy Eli, is going to want to speak to me a lone so it's probably best if you stay up here. I'll show you my game room and what not so you won't get bored then you can go home. Wait what do your parents think of you being here?"

She looked shocked by my question, "Oh they probably haven't even noticed I am gone."

I wanted her to say more but I clicked my phone and saw it was five till. Damn Eli for being punctual so I needed to hurry up.

I grabbed her hand and pulled her down my hallway. Her hand was so comforting and small in my own. I wanted to think more on it when I heard my doorbell ring. This was my last chance to hide and pretend I am not here. Crap he knows where the spare key is!

"It's down the second door on the left, "I said and hurried down the stairs.

I was headed towards the living room when I heard, "Izzy!"

Closing my eyes I stopped in my tracks. I took a deep breath and when I let it out I almost threw up. I squeezed my nails into my palm and walked into the living room.

And there he was in my house in my living room uninvited. I wanted to hurt myself for picking out those things that had attracted me to him in the first place. His tall but firm build and chocolate brown hair. But the blue eyes mixed with that hair were really the kicker. I blinked out of it and realized he was staring right back at me. He was looking at me like he had never seen me before, but maybe this was part of the act.

He suddenly shook himself and said, "Can we talk?"

I looked at him bug eyed and said, "Sure. But I don't think there is anything to talk about."

He sat down in the recliner so I sat down on the couch farthest away. I looked down at the light carpet as the silence got really awkward. I didn't want him to be here and my mind was running at a million miles per hour. While worrying about myself I couldn't help but think about poor Jamie upstairs. She had no idea what kind of monster was in th house just a floor away from her.

"So basically I wanted to say I'm sorry Izzy," Eli said quietly.

I was shaking from the emotion overload and I asked,"for what? What could you possibly be sorry for!?"

He really thought sorry could take it all back? No he didn't he just thought I was stupid enough to fall for it. Well fall for it again.

Suddenly Eli got up from the recliner and walked toward me. Instinctively I braced myself and pushed myself as far back into the couch. My heart was beating so loud and so fast I was sure he could hear it and possibly Jamie all the way upstairs.

Then he did something that surprised me. He got down on one knee in front of me. My mind began to race at all the possibilities of what he would say next. Would he really propose? I'm not old enough or ready for this.

His face was full of worry, and that was an expression I had only seen once or twice. Whatever he was about to say was going to be big. My heart was still beating in my ears as he reached out for my hand. I gave it to him without a second thought.

"I love you Izzy. I promise that whatever I did to you was in the past and that now I have changed. I won't ever hurt you again. You're the sunshine of my life and everything I've ever wanted. I'm sorry that I didn't realize it the first time," He said and then looked up at me expectedly.

My words were caught in my throat. I looked away and tried to control my thoughts. I knew going back to him was suicidal that he would hurt me worse then before. But the adorable look on his face brought me back to the begning and I wanted to believe his words.

"Well I.." I began to say but then I was interrupted.

"Hey Dory where are the towels? I was going to shower but I just couldn't find them anywhere," Jamies voice said coming down the stairs.

I cringed inside because I didn't want her down here for this. I stood up and like that I was out of his trance. I had almost let him get me back.

"Oh who is this?" She asked walking to the couch.

Then I turned to Eli who was shocked at what was happening. He seemed to be checking her out! That gross pig.

I smiled and said,"My pig of an ex boyfriend who is leaving right now." I turned to him, "Get the hell out of my house and don't come near it again."

Eli looked mad as he stood up. I was suddenly his afraid little girlfriend again.

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