beautiful mistake; general a. hux ➥ on hold

ACT II.

ACT II.

It continued for about a month, my day plan stayed the same every day. I was able to control my lack of concentration after a while, but I was still imtimidated by the guy in the black mask and kept hearing the strange voice in my head.

You're amusing.
Who do you think he is?
Eventually he'll notice.
This won't end good for you.

It just wouldn't leave me alone.
After a time I had developed a small crush on the General and I hated myself for it. Of course, it was very unprofessional and there was no way a high ranking general like him would ever think of someone like me like I thought of him. It was just stupid. Really, really stupid.

I got terribly nervous any time I was around him and I knew he must've noticed by now, he wasn't dumb. If anything he was one of the smartest and most hard-working people I knew. I admired him greatly for that. But even that was too much admiration from my side. I needed to stay neutral towards him. It's what I was supposed to do.

***

My shift for the day was over, I had finished looking over a few documents for the General and had mastered some martial arts training and was finally allowed to head to my quarters again.

I wandered the halls aimlessly, my exhaustion was obvious. Before almost reaching my quarters, I suddenly bumped into something, better said someone.
I looked up to see General Hux' intimidatingly green eyes stare down at me. Somehow, he looked really pissed. It was my second time bumping into him now and this time he wouldn't take any apologies.
It was best to get out of his way as quick as possible. And that's what I did. I nodded, and scurried away as fast as humanly possible. My quarters seemed like the safest place to me right now and I was quick to be in bed now. But sleep just wouldn't come. My mind was racing, words repeating over and over again, Hux' face flashing in front of my eyes. His red hair, his oh so beautiful green eyes. Then, the look he'd carried just a few hours ago when I'd bumped into him in the hallway. Thinking about it again, his look wasn't exactly the look of enragement more that of doubt mixed with a hint of anger. Not his normal stoic look but a look of sadness, doubt and anger. The General I knew wasn't like that.

The next morning I still hadn't gotten the General out of my head. I was actually worried about him. This was a worst case scenario. Nothing like this was ever supposed to happen to someone like me. I was supposed to stay quiet and follow my orders not follow my orders and fall for my superior at the same time. Great. Fucking great.

Once I started my shift at the control panels I was really uncomfortable not only because I was under the constant watch of General Hux but also because I kept feeling Kylo Ren's stare in my back. Yes, Kylo Ren.

The man in the black mask and the robe turned out to be Supreme Leader Snoke's right hand. I found out through some of the soldiers whispering about while on their break. Something about how was only Snoke's right hand because of his force sensivity and how just about anyone in a black mask and a weird robe could pull off the job. I think I never saw either of the soldiers ever again. It just made me more scared of him. And since I now knew he was capable of usinge the Force I also suspected him of being the one to invade my thoughts. I wasn't sure though.

I looked over to where General Hux stood and admired his features for a short while. Suddenly he turned around and now we were looking each other dead in the eye.

His hands were still clasped together behind his back but from his eyes I could see that he was just as surprised as me to be looking each other directly in the eye.
He was unprepared for this. I had caught him off-guard. After realizing how long exactly we had been staring at each other I had to rip my eyes away from him and return them to the flickering screen in front of me.