C for Courage

Goodbye Agony..

James is asleep now.

THANK YOU JESUS!

I slowly slide out of the bed. I slip on a quick outfit and walk silently out of the room. I slide down the banister of the stairwell to avoid the creaky stair. I jog to the door and I slip out with no noise. I started to run.

I remember the way to Andy and Juliet's house. I would go to my brother's house but if James wakes up that is the first place he'll look.

Jeremy told me to dump James years ago. I was just a kid then and I thought I was in love. The day I turned 18, James forced me to cut all contact with my friends and brother and move in with him.

I stop at a group of bushes and hide behind them putting in my ear buds and playing "The Strays" by Sleeping with Sirens.

I started jogging again to the sound of Kellin's voice. I started to sing along softly as I ran past some of James' friends' houses.

"Hubcaps and ashtrays

I was born, but I wasn't raised
The big wheel, the black space
Tried my best, but wasn't praised

Hell is so close to heaven
Hell is so close to heaven

Hold on don't look back
You know we're better, we're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better, we're better than that
We are the strays (whoah)
We are the strays

Train tracks to the stage
Play that role
The one you made
Long nights and the worst days
Lived it all, but I didn't break

Hell is so close to heaven
Hell is so close to heaven

Hold on don't look back
You know we're better, we're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better, we're better than that
We are the strays (whoah)
We are the strays

My whole life they said I'd be nothing
Well I'm something
And I would rather be the stray
Than be nothing to no one at all

Hubcaps and ashtrays
I was born, but wasn't raised

Hold on don't look back
You know we're better, we're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better, we're better than that
Cause we are the strays
We are the strays"

The song soon ended and I was just now passing Jinxx's house. I sigh and keep running and sing softly to the next song "Bulls in the Bronx" by Pierce the Veil.

"Do you know

I count your heartbeats before you sleep (you sleep)?
I bite my fingernails to bone (to bone)
And then I crawl back under the stairwell
To a place I call my home.

I really hope you enjoy the show,
Because for me, it's just a bad day.
You need people like me to feel.

Maybe we're just having too much fun.
Maybe you can't handle yourself,
Staring at me with your lips and tongue.

You'll never know
I don't know where I'm going to sleep tonight.
She said, "Hotels are cheap,
And there's one down the street."
But, don't you threaten me with a good time.
Murder the moment.
My God, I'm the serpent.
I'm sorry, I can't see that you truly love me.

Maybe we're just having too much fun.
Maybe you can't handle yourself,
Staring at me with your lips and tongue.

I've been having this dream that we can fly,
So maybe if we never wake up, we can see the sky.

Oh, alright.

Please, don't take this out on me,
'Cause you're the only thing that's keeping me alive.
And I don't wanna wait for the down-set date
'Cause I would rather end it all tonight.
And if I mean anything to you,
I'm sorry, but I've made up my mind.