C for Courage

a year later

I woke up to my son crying. Oh, yeah. In the year that has passed several things have happened.

1. I was in the hospital for four months because of my injuries

2. I found out I was pregnant, confirming James raped me.

3. I moved back in with Jinxx

4. I healed up

and 5. I had a handsome baby boy and named him Christian Caiden Ferguson

Anyway, I got out of my bed and went to the corner and got my son out of his crib.

I fed him, checked his diaper and burped him. I held him as I got on my laptop.

I went on YouTube and saw Motionless in White finally had a new song out. I clicked it and listened to it.

'GO!

BLEAGH!

Burn it down, brick by brick. Made in 2006
Lost and found, losing grip, I needed this
Question me not, for I gave up everything.
Forget me not, cause I've not forgotten what this means.

Strip me down, tear me apart, you'll find one theme left.
No sign of stopping till my veins rust.
Strip me down, Tear me apart, you'll find one thing left.
I fucking know where I came from.

...And nothing can replace those lessons learned,
As I stood with my brothers on the side of the road.
No longer haunted by the skeletons.
No longer haunted by the past.

For so long, it's all I've known
I'm crossing over the undertow.
For so long no one was listening
Determined to make their deaf ears ring.

Miles repeat. My worst enemy... is me.
But then 4 soon became 6
To shatter the canvas

Handed nothing. Loss pulling the strings
Outlived the dead trends
United by distance

For so long, it's all I've known
I'm crossing over the undertow.
For so long no one was listening
Determined to make their deaf ears ring.

I've been to hell and back, with no promise of return.
So I made friends with fire, to keep from getting burned.
No money, no sleep. Dedication
10 years on the road this is sacred.
And when I'm facing a wall, I do not quit.
...Cause if you mean it, you will make it.

Pulled apart in a world so demanding.
I'm still here, still standing
I've sweat blood from Stockholm to Scranton
Still here, still standing.

You can always rinse the surface, but the stain will remain.

For so long, it's all I've known
I'm crossing over the undertow.
For so long no one was listening
I did my time.

You live, you learn, you defy the terms, but this house will be my home.
Beguiled, betrayed, it's the price we pay, as trust will be our tomb.

If you mean it, you'll make it...

BLEAGH!'

I smiled. I love this song so much and I only heard it once. I decide to ruin my son's childhood even farther and put on 'Blood on the Dance Floor'.

'Dance Fire Up In This Room Ah! Ah!

Expecting Certain Dooom Ah! Ah!

Attention Please!
Everyone in the dance club freeze
Remain the position And Bleed!

Ah! Ah! I Like It
Against The Wall
Just Fuck Me In The Hall
You Scream " Meat Sucks"
We'll your Out Of Luck
I'll Fuck You In The Face
And Leave A Nice Taste
A Hot Mess!
That's What's Up!
I'll Fuck You in the club
On The Ground
Mop It up
Relax! Relax!
It's My Secksy Track!
Fresh To Death
Don't you dare forget
Ghetto Blastin
Hot Sex Everlastin
HELLZ YA BITCH!

H - E - L - L - O
Blasting Through Your stereo
K - I - T- T- Y
Let Me Slip Between Your Thighs
H - E - L - L- O
Coming Straight From Tokyo
K - I - T - T - Y
My Sex Will Leave You Satisfied
H - E - L - L- O
Show Me How Your Sucha Hoe
K - I - T - T - Y
Bitch I'll Make You Fucking Cry
H - E - L - L- O
Down On Your Knees And Blow
K - I - T - T - Y
YOUR SUCHA FUCKING CUTIE PIE!

Crank That And Shake That
Dancing With My Kitty
And Leaving This Committee
O It's Such A Pity
But We're On Fire
Dance Floor Desire
Seat Belts Aren't Required
Wraped Around Me Like Barbwire
Your Addiction I Admire
This Zone Is On Fire
I'll Be Your Sex Supplier
Will Light This Club On Fire
With Our Flashy Attire
We Moshed Like Liars
BAT CAT SHARK ATTACK FROM THE BACK!

H - E - L - L - O
Blasting Through Your stereo
K - I - T- T- Y
Let Me Slip Between Your Thighs
H - E - L - L- O
Coming Straight From Tokyo
K - I - T - T - Y
My Sex Will Leave You Satisfied
H - E - L - L- O
Show Me How Your Sucha Hoe
K - I - T - T - Y
Bitch I'll Make You Fucking Cry
H - E - L - L- O
Down On Your Knees And Blow
K - I - T - T - Y
YOUR SUCHA FUCKING CUTIE PIE!

H E L L OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
K I T T Y Y Y Y Y Y YY Y
H E L L OO O O O O O O
K I TT Y Y Y Y Y Y
H E L L L O OO O OO
K I T T Y Y Y Y Y Y Y
H E L L L L L O O O O O
K I T T T Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y YY

H - E - L - L - O
Blasting Through Your stereo
K - I - T- T- Y
Let Me Slip Between Your Thighs
H - E - L - L- O
Coming Straight From Tokyo
K - I - T - T - Y
My Sex Will Leave You Satisfied
H - E - L - L- O
Show Me How Your Sucha Hoe
K - I - T - T - Y
Bitch I'll Make You Fucking Cry
H - E - L - L- O
Down On Your Knees And Blow
K - I - T - T - Y
YOUR SUCHA FUCKING CUTIE PIE!
H - E - L - L - O
Blasting Through Your stereo
K - I - T- T- Y
Let Me Slip Between Your Thighs
H - E - L - L- O
Coming Straight From Tokyo
K - I - T - T - Y
My Sex Will Leave You Satisfied'

Yup, I defiantly going to be the world's worst single mom. Seeing as I listen to a lot of inappropriate music and my brother is helping me which means my kid is going to grow up on classical and heavy metal music.

"I'm so sorry baby. I apologize to you early. I'm sorry for ruining your mind with all my inappropriate music." I said and kissed my son's head.

Now, you may be wondering why I named my son Christian Caiden. Well I have this huge crush on CC. Seeing as his first name is Christian I used his first name for my son. Caiden came from my best friend Caiden, who is the gayest boy I know.

In turn, I probably cursed my son into being gay. I'm okay with that. Love is love to me, as long as he is happy and healthy I'll be happy.