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Chapter 8 - Apologies

"Glad you could make it" he scoffed sarcastically
I swallowed hard and tried not to make any eye contact
"Really though, why the fuck are you here?"
"I-" I choked
Why was I here? Because I was forced by Linda and Ryan? No.
"I'm here because I want to know why" I said with more confidence that I had in my body
"Why what?" He said with little emotion
I felt my heart beat grow heavier. The heavy pounding against my chest felt like the pounding beat of a drum.
"Don't act like you suddenly don't fucking know" I snapped at him
He stared at me without expression, as if everything I was saying had no effect on him
"Why did you kill her?" I said after calming myself down
"Oh that" he began
"Because I hated her" he said with a slight smile
He was so fucking proud of what he did
"Then why did you marry her?"
"Because I had to. Growing up in a gang means making deals. One of them was marriage."
It was as if everything he said had no meaning
"Then why am I here?" I asked genuinely
"After the marriage I found out that she was great in bed. But of fucking course she'd get pregnant. I told her to abort you, to get rid of you. But no."
"S-so I'm an accident?" I blurted out
"No. You're more than that. You're a mistake. A fuck up. A fucking failure."
No matter what he said, he always managed to do so without emotion.
"I should have killed you first" he mumbled
"Then why didn't you?" I said as I tried to hold back the tears that were welling in the back of my eyes
He looked up without saying anything
"Why didn't you kill me that night? Why didn't you just let me die?" I said as the tears let loose and my voice began to shake
"Because you got away you little fucking shit" he said quietly
"You're just the one that got away. Don't think you'll be alive once I get out. I fucking kill you"
I felt my heart skip a beat as everything felt as if it were frozen
"You're fucking dead"
"Why? Why are you doing this?" I managed to say with a small and quiet voice
"Wasn't that already clear?" He began
I saw his eyebrow twitch as he slammed the phone down and stood up abruptly
"I FUCKING HATE YOU" he yelled as loud as he could, his voice deep and vicious
The officer behind him grabbed him in a headlock and pulled him back
"YOU'LL NEVER BE SAFE SAMPSON"  he yelled as he was pulled out of the room
I tried to stand but my legs gave way before I fell to the floor
A lady offer came running over and attempted to help me up
"Are you okay?" She asked
I shook my head as that was the only response I could manage
I was escorted out of the visitors room and back into the waiting room where I was left with Ryan and Linda
"Sampson!" Linda gasped
"What happened?" Ryan said out of concern
"What do you think" I mumbled shakily
"Let's get you home" Linda said lovingly
I nodded as Linda rested her hand on my shoulder and lead me out of the prison over to Ryan's car.
"Let's go then" Linda said to Ryan, hinting for I him to hurry up
Ryan fumbled with the keys for a moment before unlocking the car. Once unlocked I hauled myself in and fastened the seatbelt as Ryan started the car. I stuck my earbuds in and closed my eyes in an attempt to forget what just happened.
"Sampson" a familiar voice called
"Sampson wake up" Linda repeated as I opened my eyes
"We're home"
                                 ***
"See you after school" Ryan said as he drove off to his workplace
I gave him a little wave and entered the school.
He had dropped me off an hour early so I had all the time in the world to hate myself. Great.
I walked over to the cafeteria and sat at my usual spot before resting my head down on the hard surface
"Sam?"
I lifted my head back up
"Leave me the fuck alone, I don't care about your bullshit right now" I said as I kept eye contact with the table
"S-Sam, what happened?" David stuttered out
"Don't act like you don't know" I snapped back
"Sampson" he began in an unusually stern tone
"What day is it?"
I felt the anger inside me erupt as I stood up and went to walk away before I was pulled back by the surprisingly strong grip of David. He had my arm clenched within his fist
"What day is it?" He repeated, more desperate this time
I sighed in defeat
"Monday"
David's eyes grew wide as his grip loosened
"Fuck" he whispered to himself
"What? Forget your homework" I asked sarcastically
"No you don't understand" he said as if he'd seen a ghost
"What is it then?"
"It's only happened once before" David mumbled quietly
He brought his hand up to his head and combed the hair out of his face. I rolled my eyes at him, what kind of bullshit response was he going to make up?
"It's only occurs when somethings really bad happens"
He paused and swallowed hard
"I have this other side"
I scoffed
"do you really expect me to believe that after all the shit you pulled last week?" I said, not even thinking about my words before they came out
"You don't have to forgive me but just please... Please listen" he said with a tone of fear and uneasiness
"Fine" I sighed
"whenever something really bad happens I just go blank. I don't know why I'm so messed up but it just happens. Time passes and I don't even. Know about it, the people around me always comment on how 'I've acted different' and I... I just-" he cut himself off
"I don't know what to do" he mumbled shakily
"David" I said quietly
I didn't know what to do. Was he being serious?
"I-I don't know either" I said as I looked at my feet
David let go of my and and went to walk away
"You don't have to forgive me" he said just above a whisper
"I forgive you" I whispered to myself
I felt myself push forward subconsciously, I trailed after David, attempting to catch up to his lengthy strides.
"David" I called out
He stopped and turned around, he was trying not to cry. I walked up to where he was standing and wrapped my arms around his waist before pulling him into a hug. David froze for a moment before giving up and completing the hug.