Nachgedacht

Aye

Well. I bet you all have this weird stuff you do very often but you don't notice until someone tells you about it?

I just remembered some of the weird stuff I did, less than a year ago. Most of it are fraces or words I used quiet to often like "Dito", "Lol", "What the fridge" and stuff like that. I got rid of it. Kinda. Instead of saying "Dito" to relating stuff I yell "Saaaaameh" and instead of "What the fridge" I am using "Le fuq" -more often than everything to be honest. But I have to admid I am still one of these uncool kids saying "lol" and "yolo" and stuff.

Only thing that got worst over thhe years is still and will always be the "I-won't-remember-what-you-said-in-a-min-sorry"-thing. I hate it. People always think I am not listening or just being rude. And my hearing seems to get worse too so I guess, I have to quit listening to people before they gonna hate me (more). [Lol]

I remember how I used to try learning everything I cought up. I once wanted to learn how to learn Chinese, then changed my mind and wanted to learn fighting with knifes and swords [still want to tbh], I wanted to play in musicals and learn how to inlineskate and how to use a skateboard without crashing stuff or falling so hard you wonder how you're still alive. I wanted to study drawing, then go theater, then I wanted to study chemistry and now gamedesign. I am still sad about the fact I'll never be able to live from acting or drawing or singing and stuff. But it's kinda good that I know I'll definetly keep on drawing until I die.

Did I ever told you how I think I am going to die? Well I think I am getting a heartattack while taking a shit when I am like 98yo and living with my cat and bird all on my own and they'll find my corpus after the mailman brought a package and he realised I wasn't staring at him creepily through the window this time.

I am weird, I know. But THIS is a story my sisters grandkids can tell their kids. "And this is how uncle Mephisto died." Well well.

Now that I forgot what I wanted to write I think I'll leave this here. Adios, Dudes. Or for the SPNs: "Audi Nos"!