The Journey... (A true Story)

Chapter Seven

This chapter maybe a bit confusing and this will be a long one. Grab some popcorn @Jamie and lets begin.

Sometimes things will happen for the better even though we don't want to believe it. The most tragic occurrences can be for the greater good. Do I fully believe that? Of course not, however, I sorta have to. We exist in the world to feel all emotions; Happiness, Sadness, Anger, Fear and much much more. Sadness seems to be my best friend. I get a good phase and soon; pain and sorrow seems to follow. I've still await to see a human that only has good in their lifetime.

Jack finally came back from California. We had an amazing day together and it was one of the most unforgettable days of my life. Vinnie and Tommy soon came back and Courtney followed. Everyone was back and well I kinda forgot about the server altogether. It was practically party after party and I really considered myself addicted. Let me tell you I soon became the Queen of beer pong. Come at me Tommy. You scrub.

After a couple of weeks of parties I finally decided to give it a break; get my life back together. To really focus on the main points of life again. I mean I knew what I wanted, but I never really ever committed. I wanted to become a brain surgeon and I felt like I wasn't in full control when I was out drinking and having a good time. No matter what I did or how bad I fucked up; Jack was always by my side. He honestly was the most supportive and kind boyfriend out there. He showed that no matter how bad you can mess; at the end of the day you can really improve yourself.

After giving a rest on the partying, I kinda grew apart from PDR; mainly because if it wasn't a party there was really no way we could all hang out. That's when Maddie and I grew closer. Maddie's parents weren't a big fan of the partying and the reckless drinking. My parents weren't either but I maintained good grades and did everything I needed to during the year so they gave me that. Maddie and I agreed on the simple things but we had two completely different personalities. I was a huge fan of video games and Maddie was a complete girly girl. But, at the end of the day we connected and became closer then ever. We never connected like me and others have but we agreed in many ways. We both knew that we could rely on each no matter what the circumstance was and it's still a like that today.

Well, Jack and I started to grow apart. We barely talk anymore and it was kinda odd. It wasn't the first time we stopped talking but, after a couple of days we would always reconnect. It was different and it was hard to feel such a way. I found out in the end that my friends excluding Tommy and Vinnie were giving Jack some trouble. I bet you could figure the leader of that. It was none other then the magnificent Courtney. She was harsh and turned everyone practically against him. That's when the question came out. Jack made me decide to choose between him or my friends. Choosing between the love of my life or my bestfriends was by far the utmost hardest decision that I had to make. You know the quotes "Chicks before Dick" and "Bros before hoes". Yes, we broke up but we decided to continue being friends so it was never really good bye. It was never over the love however, it was the torment that my friends gave him. He never deserved any of it and still till today I regret not standing up for him.  As for Courtney; it was still the Court and Kells way. I let her walk all over me. It was like I was her puppet.

Soon, another tragic event occurred. Someone very important passed away in Vinnie's life and he soon fell into deep stage of depression. He gave up on any reason to keep living, he lost the purpose for his life. Vinnie is by far the strongest individual I have ever encountered; he's strong, determined, passionate and loving. However, in that moment he lost it all. Nothing could take him out of that state. In the moment, I wish I could take away all the pain that he had to face. Vinnie quit his job and took off. All I wanted to do was support him and help him overcome the depression. After 3 days, no one heard from him; some even considered him dead. He couldn't overcome the pain however, Courtney was already out partying and living the life. Shows how pain impacts different people.