Teenage me

Whats been going on

Hey guys this is going to be a little longer than all my other ones
Something that I kind a need to get off my mind OK let's start with what's been happening OK I was dating this guy name Alex and we were doing really good until like we started getting these small argument over the littlest things like one time I was able to go to his house and he's like "give me a good reason why" I said "Well my mom don't have the gas money I'm not ready and I am feeling really sick " feels like " yeah whatever and hang out with A friend" I asked him who was the friend ignore my text for about four hours and then I text him again who's the friend he's like just a girl that I knew all my life I'm like so it's cousin were really close guy friend
He texted me two hours later saying no to girl
That was the text that Meme flipped out so I constantly texted him saying
Oh a girl
What are y'all doing
OK so now you're not gonna text me
He just read the text and didn't do nothing about it I got so so so so mad so I get out all my nerves together and I called him he answered me I was like hey what are y'all doing he's like not and just walking the track
But I knew he wasn't because I have a friend that lives by the track and I just talk to her and she looked out she was at the track and she's asked if I want to come hang
I told her no who's all there she's like nobody just me and Isaac
Isaac is her brother
OK I will I can't right now I'm trying to figure out something and I hung up and then I recalled Alex
He Answer me I was like where you really at
He said back at my house with his friend
I was like OK whatever and then I hung up
We didn't talk for about a week his mom called me a couple times I answered she was like is Alex OK he hasn't come out of his room I told her what happened and she got really mad at him because she knew something that I didn't know and I know that and so I told her to tell me and she didn't she didn't tell him
I found out that him and his little friend kissed and a lot of shit happend
So I freaked out and called him the next day he's like Destiny I have so much stress on me right now and I can't stand it I don't think we need a date right now I don't need a girlfriend at the moment
I was quiet for about two minutes and I just fest up and said OK he's like I'm sorry but
I just stopped him and hung up and then I started talking to another guy like I just moved on like I never had a boyfriend before but I didn't really move on I just started talking to the guy name Ronnie and Maan did fall face first into the gravel
Ronnie is a guy that I fell face first I am head over heels for like I want this person I want this boy to be mine but I still have feelings for Alex so I just have to hold back on going to Ronnie
So it's been 1 or 2 months and I been talking to Ronnie for a while and I really like him and just 4 days ago me and Ronnie had this long talk about things
Guys I'm really negative about a lot of things like my self other people clothes stores just about every thing there is and I'm bipolar and shit
And so we haven't talked for 5 bloody fucking days and I called him today and it went straight to voicemail and it really fucked me up in the head like what the fuck I'm crying I want you to talk to me tell me every thing is okay to come over and hug me and fall with me
I have texted him this
"Hey...I thought about what you said and I know you won't get this tell you get off work but I'm willing to change my negative ways cuz you can help me think positive and be more positive of my self and every thing else and I'm really sorry talk about things that make you mad but I'm willing to change ..... So text me or call me when you have a chance or have seen this...love you"
Yes guys we say 'I love you' to rack others
But guys it's late here and I need to go I'm starving so I'm going to go eat and go to bed ....
Bye bye