Just friends (ross lynch/r5 fanfiction)

the Talk

"what the hell Ross!! you knew that nick was over!! why'd you do that!!"

"I'm just trying to protect you ally!! i care about you!"

"if you cared about me then why did you do that?! i wanna be with nick!! he makes me happy and I've liked him for so long and you know that!!"

"i know al and I'm sorry. i really am but..." he stopped.

"but what?" i asked. i sat next to him on his bed.

"i..i cant tell you." Ross said without looking at me.

"I'm your best friend you can tell me anything."

"no i cant. not this. its..complicated. I'm sorry i screwed up your date with nick. I'm sorry I'm such a screw up. I'm really really sorry and it'll never happen again." Ross said before he got up and walked toward the door.

we were both on the verge of tears. "wait Ross." i said as i grabbed his arm. he turned around to face me.

"please..tell me.." i said in a whisper.

Ross grabbed my hand and led me over to the window. we climbed out and sat down on the roof. "..what I'm about to say is gunna change everything between us but if i don't say it then..you'll hate me forever because I'm just gunna be worse when ever you're around nick. and that's because..its because I'm jealous."

i didn't understand at first.

"I'm jealous that he gets to call you baby and hold you in his arms and kiss you and hug you and tell people that you're his. I'm jealous that when he says i love you, you say it back and that only happens on MY dreams. I'm jealous that he gets to send you good morning and goodnight texts. I'm jealous that..I've been around forever and you're still his.."

that left me speechless. "Ross.."

"you don't have to say anything ally. i know you like nick and i don't expect you to break up with him just because i told you how in love with you i am. i don't want you to be unhappy because of me."

"Ross..you could never make me unhappy. as a matter of fact you've made these past 16 years anything but unhappy. you're the best thing that's ever happened to me but-"

"but you don't feel the same way and you like nick. not me. i get it."

"no Ross its not that its just...i like him..a lot bu i kinda..like you too.."

"kinda?"

"okay fine..i really like you. i have for awhile but i didn't realize it until we kissed.."

"sooo you still wanna be friends right?"

"yeah and it won't be awkward between us right?"

"no but..when you're with nick I'm GUNNA be a jealous maniac. just warning you.."

"i might not even stay with nick." i said as i put my chin on my knees. I'm talking to him as my best friend now and I'm pretending that that while conversation before didn't even exist.

"why?"

"things are moving way to fast..yeah i wanted them to but..i mean when we aren't making out we have nothing to talk about."

"really?" Ross looked sad..well for me because he could tell i was upset.

"yeah..not ALL guys are as easy to talk to as you and your brothers are." we both laughed lightly.

"well just..talk to him. see where things go. try it out first and if you don't connect then worry about that. i mean you've only been dating for like a few hours.." i laughed.

"since when did you become the most amazing person in my life?"

"when we were 7 and i punched Josh Dodge for taking your doll at recess."

i remember that. Ross was always looking out for me. always. hes been there for me for..well ever.

i wrapped my arms around him and out my head on his shoulder. he hugged me back.

"you're the best." i said softly.