Kill Myself...

Chapter 5

My mind screamed at me to stop, but it was too late. I had already wrapped my arms around her neck as she held on tightly to my waist. How could anything like this happen...? Both of us hungerly kissed each other, the passion thickining between us, when suddenly... SQUEEEEEEEK! A rabbit's squeel made us leap away from each other gasping for air. I sat there and gawked at her for a moment before getting up and leaving. I knew Andrea's eyes were boring into my spine at I stumbled through the grass, but I didn't care. She was the one who invaded my heaven, where I spent my time thinking, Andrea was like a dark cloud shadowing my thoughts while she was here.

I slowly made my way home, traveling down the endless sidewalks, kicking stones and scuffing the souls of my shoes. Finally darkness was falling as I rounded my last corner and started down my street, towards my house. Today I didn't care if my brother saw or heard me, he could hit me if he wanted to, I just didn't care. I opened the front door and slammed it loudly, as I began walking through the kitchen I didn't hear a sound. That was weird... I went into my room, locked the door and put my book shelf in front of it. Still nothing happened. There was no banging and yelling, no crying and hiding. Just me, the quiet and my room.

In the middle of the night I woke up to hear my mobile ringing. No one in school knew my number, who could it be? Was it Andrea? Perhaps it was my stupid brother, not like I was going to let him into the house. Nope. I was wrong, it was the police. What could they be calling for?

"Hello ma'am, is this Lacey Torres I am speaking to?" A deep voice asked.

"Yes... What do you want?" I narrowed my eyes as if the man could see me.

"We are sorry to inform you that your brother, David Torres, has been in a car accident and was killed in the process." His voice was thick with sympathy but I couldn't understand why...

"Thank you for informing me, is there anything I need to do or is that just it?"

"No ma'am, thats all. No paperwork needs to be filled out or anything like that."

"Thank you sir, you have a good night." I hung up the phone and started jumping up and down, I knew it was wrong... But thank god that abusive bastard had finally died! I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night, I quickly logged onto my crappy old laptop and looked at the news to confirm it. It was true!!! 

For the third time this week, I covered my bruised torso with a purple shirt that said: "Live to love and love to die." I covered my arms with my black hoodie and jumped into my grey skinny jeans, I completed my gothic look with a skull belt and a beanie. Heavily brushing my eyes with black eye shadow and adding my black eyeliner, I blinked twice at myself in the mirror then grabbed my bag and left. I stopped by a 7- 11 to grab a hot dog and began eating it on the way to school. This was the first actual meal I had had in days! 

When I arrived at school Andrea pulled me out of the crowd, again, and behind a wall. She hugged me and giggled excitedly, I gave her the happiest closed mouth smile I could manage, (I probably looked like a retarded moose, but hey I tried!) I quickly told her the news of how my terrible brother had gotten into an accident last night, she looked at me kind of funny at first until she realized that he was also abusing me. After I had finished my story, she kissed me on the cheek and hurried off to class with a blushing face.

For the smallest moment in time... I was actually happy. But heaven only lasts forever... At the end of the day I grabbed Andrea and pulled her after me, we walked six and a half miles before we finally arrived at where I wanted us to be. The beautiful cliffs boardered the sea as the pink sky stretched out in front of us. I sat on the side of the cliff and signaled for Andrea to sit next to me. I took her hand and layed my head on her shoulder as I started to say something she cut me off by kissing me. Our cliff high kiss was filled with lust and and craving. Andrea's hand began to slip under my shirt, she wrapped her hands around my jagged hip bones and began moving higher, her hands brushed my exposed rib cage, then I stopped her. I grabbed her wrists, dropping my head and I started sobbing. 

I stood up and paced away from Andrea slowly, she stood up and put her hands on my shoulders, she tried to pull me into a hug but I freaked out.

"Dont touch me!" I screeched. Her eyes widened and she lifted he hands up as if to say, I surrender. I walked towards the cliffs edge. I tried to stop myself but the words started tumbling out, "Don't try to tell me its fine when its not! Don't tell me to smile when there is nothing to smile about! Don't tell me to keep holding on when you don't even know my pain! You can't imagine how much it hurts to live this life!" Andrea realized what was happening as I took a step back, bringing myself that much closer to the cliffs edge.

"Lacey... What are you doing? Stop. Stop it! Don't go any closer!" She cluthed her stomach and started sobbing as she yelled that over and over again.

I took another step back, my heels hanging over the edge, "I'm leaving... I'll never be alone again... It will all be over now, it will all just be over..." I leaned backwards, spreading my arms out and falling through the empty air... "Good bye!" I shouted to the world and waved at my sobbing Andrea. Disappearing into the hard surface of the cold water filled with the heavy currents and the black rocks. My body was never discovered, torn and battered, eaten away if you will. I died with a real smile on my face... 

Thank you for coming on this adventure with me! Yes thats the end. I'm sorry but it had to end sometime, didn't it? I'll write more stories soon! Thank you again for reading, dont be afraid to leave your commento's down below! Love you guys! Byeeeeeee <3