You're My Reason Why (Boyxboy) #Wattys2016

Chapter Six

(Ricky's pov)

I ran into the house and saw Cam just sitting on the couch. I had tear streaks running down my face. "Hey, little bro-" He stopped and turned to me. "What happened?"

"Eric found out that I like him," I said.

"Why are you crying? What did he say?"

"He said he finds it weird and I told him I won't bother him anymore."

"So, he doesn't want you to even be around him?" I nodded and he sighed. "Damn, bro, don't be upset over him. He's not worth it."

"I guess you're right," I said. He smiled and gave me a fist bump. I gave him a small smile and he went back to watching TV. I sighed and went up to my room. I sat down at my laptop and went to my Facebook. I saw I had a message from Calvin.

'Hey, dude, I need to tell you something. It's about Eric.'

I rolled my eyes and sent, 'If it's about him not liking gay people then I already know.' I sighed and waited for him to get back to me.

'It's not that. . .' I felt my stomach turn when I saw the three periods. That always means it's bad.

'What?' I sent it and he replied back immediately.

'Eric tried to kill himself. . .' My heart stopped and I just stared at the screen. I finally typed a message with shaky hands.

'How do you know?' I asked.

'May heard his friends talking about it. That's why he has rope burns on his neck.' I felt like I was going to puke. How could he do this? No wonder he acts like an asshole! I'd be an asshole too if no one helped me when I said I was going to kill myself. He doesn't deserve to die, there's too much to miss out on.

'Is that why he was out for a week?' I asked.

'Yeah, I'm sorry. I don't think he's ever going to like you or get close to you. He probably has trust issues or something like that.' I read the message and sighed. He's right, as much as it hurts to not talk to him, I just want him happy.

'Thanks for telling me, I'm going to go get dinner. See you tomorrow.' I sent it and closed my laptop. I walked out of my room and down the steps. I saw Cam and Dad watching a hockey game and Dad smiled at me when I walked past.

"Hey, how are you?" he asked.

"Not the best, Eric hates me," I said.

"Why?" Dad asked.

"He thinks gay people are weird," I said.

Dad nodded and said, "Ah, I understand. Well like I said before, don't take no for an answer."

"I guess I'll try." He nodded and they went back to the hockey game. After Mom got home we all went to the dining room.

"So, how was you day?" Mom said.

I shrugged and said, "Fine." Cam rolled him eyes and punched my arm.

"Liar, his heart got broken today," Cam said.

"Oh, honey! I'm so sorry, how are you feeling?" she asked.

"Like crap," I said. She sighed and gave me a sad smile. I didn't say anything and barely ate by the time dinner was over. I went to my room and laid on my bed to think.

(Eric's pov)

I sat on my bed and thought about what my brother said. He thought I was gay? I mean, I don't really like girls but I don't like boys either. So what exactly am I? I got up off my bed and went to my laptop. I logged in and looked up 'What does it mean to not be attracted to anything?' I clicked enter and saw a lot of articles and blogs on asexuals. Maybe I'm that? I don't know, I'll just ask Connor. I went downstairs and saw everyone watching TV. I sat down next to Connor and he smiled at me. "Do you think I'm asexual?" I asked.

"I don't know, just because you don't like dating anyone now doesn't mean you won't ever. You just haven't found that person yet," he said. I nodded and thanked him. I went back upstairs and got my notebook out. I wrote down my third reason.

'Reason three: I'll never get to experience love.'

"Knock, knock." I turned to see my dad in the doorway. I smiled at him and he came in. "Hey, buddy," he said and I nodded to him.

"Hi, did you need something?" I asked.

"I was just wondering how your first day back went."

I sighed and said, "Okay I guess, my friends all said they were sorry. But it's also kind of bad because this junior has a crush on me."

"Oh, why is having a girl crushing on you bad? Is it because she's older than you?"

"Actually, it's a he," I said. His mouth made a 'O' shape and he nodded.

"Oh, well there's nothing wrong with that," he said.

"But it's weird! I don't like people checking me out!" I said.

"Oh, Eric. You have a lot to learn. You're  going to fall in love someday and it could be with a guy or a girl," Dad said. I nodded and he walked out of my room. Maybe he's right,  I shouldn't get freaked out over this. And I was an asshole to him. The only reason I'm an ass is because I don't want to get close to people. I always get hurt in the end and I'm tried of it. That's why I act like an asshole. I sighed and looked in the mirror. I've had people stare at my neck all day, but the only people who know are my friends. Unless they went around telling everyone, then I'll kick Alec's and Lloyd's asses. I can't hit a girl so I'll just leave Candice and Monica alone. I went to my bed and decided to take a nap. Maybe then I can decide whether being an asshole to Ricky was a good idea.