Just Memorable Moments...

Me and you...

Hm...just remembering some moments that happened a year ago... It was just a day after anime club that I went to the library with my friend Maria on a Friday. We remembered there was a Super Smash Bros Tournament and wanted to root for our guy friends cx (we were girls but didn't really like hanging out with girls.Mostly guys.) I remember talking to one guy friend. I won't mention his name but I remember another nickname ,Kaine,lol cx.and it was someone I really cared about.Whenever we talk he makes me feel okay.Idk how to explain it in words when I talk to him or when I'm with him but Idk just the feeling.
It was raining a lot that day and me and Maria we were waiting at the bus stop for about half an hour that never came so we decided to walk all the way from downtown to school...(dang it ugghhh I hate the rain 😢) and well she gave me her sweater when I told her it was cold I told her to take it back and she was saying no I'm fine.I felt bad but thank you Maria for caring :') ...It was so dark outside too 😭 and well we made it to school in about an hour walking.... and I was soaking wet and so was Maria and we both looked like we just got out of the shower lol but went into the bathroom and started drying off.we looked so weird and my makeup looked like it ran down my face like if I cried so terribly....when we were done we were heading into the auditorium where the event was held and to my surprise I wasn't sure but I felt I was seeing Kaine ...the first person that popped up in my head was kaine .....and as I go backstage to drop off my stuff I was thinking... I wasn't really sure if it was Kaine sitting down playing and he looked so focused. "I wish I knew how to play", I thought but Hm I was a girl that wanted to learn to do new stuffs :3 ...As I came back I came up to him from behind and patted his head and said hey, he as well did too...I was right it, was Kaine! cx I was so happy seeing him again after a long time......I walked away and sat down by myself while he continued playing his game and while Maria was with her Amor XD lol Jk but yeah "someone" named Lucas. He may be a bit perverted like but he's a good guy and knows how to respect a lady. Then I saw someone that I wanted to avoid named Mario....I remember he made fun of me for my size but I don't want to talk about that DX ugghhhh nooooo.I ran away outside for like 5 minutes and as I was coming back he was coming from behind me and ran into the auditorium and almost bumped into Kaine."sorry!" and he was like "why are you running away? I didn't know you hate me so much" (i don't remember the exact words but similar to this) and I said "noooo I don't hate youuuuu... in a childish way :3" and I told him why I felt a bit scared and uncomfortable and he said oh okay. His friend comes up to us and Kaine introduces us and I say "hi my name is Anna"and he says "hi my name is Cory nice to meet you" and I said "nice to meet you too" and Kaine looked so happy that he said "aww, see you made a new friend c: " and I said are you a junior too? And he said "no, I'm a sophomore" and I was like omg 😱.And well it was Cory's turn to play so he had to go and next thing you know.... I see Mario coming towards us, and I start to slide down the wall scared and was there on the floor for about 3 mins. And then I decided to hide and grab onto Kaine's sweater from behind him and just like hold him really tighly and Kaine tells him "I think she's scared of you".then Mario said  "oh, I feel really bad now" and apologizes and I say Its okay and Kaine says "shake hands, do it" and so I did but I ended up laughing but I was still worried he was going to do it again if he picks me up from behind -_-...and he walked away. Then Kaine was looking somewhere else and I sneakily hided behind a board and he was wondering where I was which was pretty funny XD because he was asking his friends for me and even got out of the auditorium to find me 😂. When he came back he was like "how could she disappear like that?" I started to giggle and couldn't hold back my laugh..."aha! Found you! What were you doing here? 😂"and I said just cuz I was able to fit behind the board I said XD and he said "awww come here" and starts to hug me really tightly and kisses me on the head. And I felt just a small little spark that felt really nice in my chest...I started to overheat over a moment like that but it was just weird but a nice feeling like I said...he then starts grabbing my cheek and squishing my face and I start to look away again and he's like "nope let me see your face" and he struggled, just to have me look at him and I'm like "noooo don't look at me xc" and starts telling me you're so pretty and you're so cute and I'm like "noooo don't lie to me" he said "I'm not lying you really are".and he starts sighing and telling me "how can I convince you so you know you're really pretty?" and he said "hm...I will find a way" lol cute..... and then we just sat down and I started talking about my recent breakup with Eric and I felt like I wanted to cry but I didn't have the tears to even cry...he was my first love but I didn't think it would end but oh well I had to move on. Kaine started to massage my shoulder and I said "it's fine" and I said thank you for listening to me.no problem he said c: .and then stupid me randomly said "I'm fat" and he said "no you're not" and over and over I said yes and he said no. "Okay wanna know a way to get skinnier?" "yesssss" I said. Another moment and he put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer towards him and said "you're perfect just the way you are" he whispered into my ear....I felt something else in my chest I couldn't understand. Why start flustering over someone I have recently just told to become my fake older brother.? Idk what's wrong with me Idk I had to snap out of it because he was 18 and I was just 16 there's no way. so stop.don't start to crush on him.but yeah....
And well I started to look away and so did he because I felt really nervous and a bit hot after that happened.he looked at his friend playing again...and then I hear a whisper in my ear from him...he said "Anna....." I say what? He whispers in my ear again...."I love you.... " and I said okay? And he whispered again "did you hear what I said?..." and I said yeah...he told me to say it again just do it....and I said "I love you too.... Nervously" he said awwe and pats my head.... And well I just keep looking away cuz I felt so nervous that I couldn't look at him anymore because the feeling in my chest started to hurt....he grabbed my hand and started to play with my fingers and saw that my hand was so tiny compared to his then our hands just locked and we ended up holding hands for about a minute or two...Kaine asked me "does this feel weird to you?" I said no it doesn't. I couldn't help but smile and I guess he noticed because he smiled as well...A little after .we were talking about something I forgot about what but I then remember his face was so close to mine because he couldn't hear me and Maria yelled out "Anna stop kissing him!" across the stage and loudly that maybe everyone heard and i was like "what?!" It was so embarrassing I looked down again. I really wanted to know what his face expression was but I was scared he would look at my face expression as well.I was happy though just to be with him...he then told me to hold his hand....and he said to squeeze his hand if I felt uncomfortable and I just closed my eyes and wondered what he meant because I was scared to know....he started to tickle me everywhere almost....my neck...my hips...the hand thing on my knee....my back...my head....and he said it's okay just squeeze my hand remember....and i started to squeeze his hand little by little...and he didn't stop...i didn't put a stop to it....I tried to stay calm about it...I trust him because he's my friend...and I know he isn't capable to do anything bad....he's a good person.....and when he stopped he asked me if I'm okay and I said yeah while I was bright red ..and he hugged me.....as his friend came over and started talking to him. And they were fooling around and I was laughing along while he patted my head A lot and hugged me. He standed up from his seat and just looking weird and sweet and cool Idk just me cx....but then I followed him back up the stage to get my backpack...and well I was standing next to him until Maria said "oooooh he's your bae" and I covered her mouth and he looked at me and I looked at her and I felt scared.and well I decided to walk down the stairs from the stage and sit back down but before I even got down the first step Kaine grabbed me from my backpack pulled me back towards him into his arms and asked "where are you going?...giggling in A way but not giggling exactly just a little laugh then lol". I said "just down the stairs" and he said "awww come here I haven't hugged you in a long time" he didn't let go and gave me another kiss on the head muah and holded me for awhile....he let go and randomly asked me..."I forgot..how old are you?" and I said 16 ...."aw if only you were older.....". I didn't really pay attention to him but that's how close he said it to.and I said "what?.." and he said "nothing. don't worry about it.." and well after that his friend called him over and I walked away bright red.... I can tell because I started to feel really hot...I walked out and started listening to calming music..and I was there a few minutes before Kaine left...he came up to me hugged me and said "bye" and smiled. He left...When I got home I went on through Facebook and messaged him it was nice seeing him again and he was glad too cx .... and I started to realize that I had new feelings...feelings that were much more different than the ones that I had for Eric...but all I know now is that till this day I still have feelings....
Feelings that I've had since October 23,2015....I don't have a chance at all to be with him...but all I can say is, the best memories are the ones when I'm with him......he may or may not know how I feel....but for me...what I want for him is to be happy and smiling....that's what I wish....that's just how I am...I care and what I want for each and every person to be happy... just like how I am every time i'm with him....I am happy c: just for those moments....
Even if I am late to tell him my feelings it's okay....I just want him happy.....Kaine...thank you for this wonderful feeling....cx...Yee...just all I wanted to write down....c: