Letters To You

Chapter 7

"When someone makes you the happiest person and the saddest person at the same time, that's when it's real. That's when it's worth something."

Bea

A week had passed since the last time I saw her but it feels like it had been an eternity. I was supposed to think about our situation and solve the issue but all I could think of is her. I've grown attached to her in the weeks that we were together. I barely ate and got out of my room which made my parents worry. They noticed how I slid back to my own protective shell when I came home that night. I didn't bother to tell them I arrived home.

It took all of my will to restrain myself from going back. I really have to think well before throwing myself back. There are a lot of uncertainties involved and I don't want to risk falling hard for someone who might not feel the same way.

But I shouldn't love. God, I'm dying.

There's only one way to know and it's to ask her. If she doesn't feel the same then, we could just go on with our lives like it had been before we met. I have to face whatever fear I have. While the feeling isn't too deep, might as well deal with it. If I'll lose her, at least I could say I tried to be honest although if she feels the same, that's another story. Looking ahead, I won't be here for long. I'll be another faded soul. It will hurt her if I'll pursue her.

What now, Beatriz? Think. Decide. Commit.

Aha!

I think showing her rather than tell her it would be better. At least I haven't said anything that would make her hope. In the end, I'm going to take in all the pain.

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"Fries, coke, stuffed toy, what el-" I was going over what I should buy when my dad suddenly called me.

"Isabel, what are y-"

"Oh Dad, hi! Uhm, I'll need the car right now cause I have to go somewhere. Please. Please. Please." I was doing the "puppy eye" effect.

"You know I can't say no to my only princess. Go ahead. Drive safely, baby."

I jumped in excitement and kissed him goodbye. "See you later, Dad. You're the best!"

It's already 2 in the afternoon. I need to get all these done by now. I got tons of fries and the coke. What kind of flowers should I buy?

She said sunflowers are her favorite. It brings her hope for a better tomorrow.

I bought three big sunflowers and went to buy the last item on the list. I'm good to go! This is it!

Jho

When will you come back? I miss you so bad.

I'm sitting at the benches at our meeting place. It's never the same without you. It's lifeless.

How I wish you were here with me watching the sunset. Right now, my head should be resting on your shoulder and I would eventually hear your faint humming.

But you're gone.

Just as when I was about to leave someone held both of my hands from behind.