chance [hoseok]

june 27, 2016

happy anniversary!
it's been three years.
three years of me loving you.
but i didn't just love you.
i hoped.
hoped that you would stop with the lies.
hoped that you would love me the same way i love you.
did you know that
for three years, i've turned a blind eye.
for three years, i've ignored everything.
for three years, i've been wishing you'd see the good in me.
and not him.
for three years, i cut you some slack.
hoping that one day you'll be sick of him, and come back to loving me.
truly loving me.
for three years, you thought that i knew nothing.
that i was too stupid to realise that you looked happy with me but happier with him.
for three years, i prevented myself from letting you go.
for i hoped that you would eventually tell me the truth.
did the truth ever come?
did the lying ever stop?
can you stop pretending?
no, will you stop pretending?
will you ever think about my feelings?
how i spend my nights alone while you were out with your "friends"?
will you ever think about me?
happy 3 year anniversary,
my love.