chance [hoseok]

july 1, 2016

why did you stay with me today?
i thought you'd be out again
why are you here?
why are you suddenly being so kind to me?
so sweet to me?
so loving to me?
i don't understand.
i should be happy
now that i'm finally getting the love that you've never showed me all this time.
but
i'm not happy.
something must be terribly wrong with me.
it's almost as if i'm suspicious.
suspicious of your actions.
suspicious of your feelings.
are you sure you're not just toying with me?
playing with me?
but why do i feel like your smile towards me is genuine?
or is it an illusion?

i just don't know anymore, heeyoung.

am i in love with you or am i in love with the feeling?