Your Hope (YoonSeok)

Chap 22

Fall seven times, stand up eight

- Unknown

Yoongi's Pov

As soon as I got home, I ran straight to my bedroom making sure to lock it. I got into bed and covered myself with the duvet.

I just felt sobs rack through me.

It literally feels like my heart has shattered. I know I'm being over dramatic but my chest feels like it's going to explode. A part of me thought he liked me back but another part was just being realistic. I didn't have any willpower to do anything.

I ran my finger over my lips remembering the tingling sensation his lips left. I grabbed the sleeve of my hoodie and rubbed it over my lips trying to get rid of his lips that touched mine. Trying to get rid of the feeling still lingering.

I heard a knock at my door and then my grandpa's sweet voice. "Yoongi sweetheart. Open the door."

I threw the covers off and opened the door and looked at him. I watched him frown. "Oh dear, come here."

I collapsed in his arms and sobbed. He ran his hand up and down my back whispering soothing words into my ear. "It will be okay."

I let go of him and sat down on my bed. He followed me and held my hand. "What happened?" He asked.

"We kissed and he said he shouldn't have done that. Basically calling it a mistake." I placed my face in my hands. "I thought he liked me, grandpa."

"Oh dear, I promise you Yoongi anyone can see that the man likes you. Maybe it isn't clear to him yet but he does like you."

"Then why did he regret doing it?" I basically screamed.

"I don't honestly don't know Yoongi, come go to sleep you have school tomorrow." I was just about to speak up but he pointed his finger at me. "No, I've let you had a week off Yoongi. Time to face your demons." He kissed my cheek and walked out of my room.

All night I stayed awake all night staring at the ceiling. When my alarm went off I turned it off and made my way to the bathroom.

I stripped all my clothes and stood under the shower, I turned it on and let the cold water hit me. I kept it cold making sure it woke my body up. After around 5 minutes I switched the water to warm and began cleaning my hair and body.

After I got a towel and shit, the normal morning shit.

I grabbed a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt and put it on. Along with my boxers and socks, I slipped on some white trainers and made my way downstairs.

"Morning Yoongi, here is some breakfast." My grandpa said kissing my cheek.

"Not hungry. I'll see you later." I kissed his cheek and grabbing my things before walking out of the door.

"Yoon-" I heard just before shutting the door.

I really couldn't be asked to deal with anyone today. I don't want to see anyone, especially Hoseok.

Hoseok. I regret meeting that son of a bitch so much.

No, you don't.

I really do regret it.

No, you really do not. You still like him.

Whatever. I ignore the arguing going on with myself in my head.

When I finally reach school I ignore all the stares being sent my way.

"Look the suicide freak is back." I heard Kae giggle.

I didn't try to commit suicide. But just some people are so inconsiderate. They don't care about to people's feelings as long as they feel better about themselves. Sometimes they don't realise how their words can affect people.

I sighed and opened my locker looking at the timetable stuck on the wall. I grabbed the books needed for today and slammed it shut.

"Yoongi." I heard his voice. Ignored it and walked away from where his voice was coming from. "Yoongi please." He pleaded me. "I'm sorry."

I turned around and he looked so tired. Guess I'm not the only one. His eyes were darker today and had deep dark eyes under his eyes.

"Just leave me alone Hoseok," I said and walked off ignoring his pleas.