don't you understand?
that seeing you with your hand on her thigh
is like looking me dead on and spitting "fuck you" to my face
don't you understand?
that every time i hear your name come out of her mouth
it's like a concrete claw constricts my lungs and my heart drops to its knees in defeat
don't you understand?
that when you lock eyes with me from across the room
its like you're deliberately begging me to erase the past 4 months
like you're begging me to understand
but don't you understand?
that you cutting me off completely didn't help me at all?
it only ended up saving your ass
just barely
don't you understand?
that i'm trying to do what's best for all of us?
but sometimes i feel like i don't even know what that is anymore
i want you to understand
but you don't.
and it hurts like hell.
