you are my favorite hello
and you were my hardest goodbye
my heart still leaps to greet you
but my head forgets to meet you
somewhere in the confused twisted up middle of "i hate you" and "i love you"
will i ever be able to tell the difference?
probably not now after everything that's passed silently and unspoken between us
it's a language only you and i understand
and it's called stubborn heartache
things we both know we could change
but we won't because we are too big for that
too proud too "grown up" too loud
and recently i've just decided to turn up the volume
so the sound of my anxiety ridden brain
blocks the pleading of my heart that knows the truth
