So Close,yet So Far

What a trip!

Oh my holy God! It's saturday, 1 am. We are going to leave at 8 am. I was in a dilemma. I didn't know what to wear! I didn't want to wear jeans because they were too generic. I started to look in my closet for something beachy and something that would make me look cool and someth-. Wait a minute. Why am I doing this! I'm just going to the beach. We've been there a hundred times! Why is time so Special! As if on cue, my heart responds silently but convincingly, 'because Pandora is going to be there.' How did I care if some beautiful, adorable,sweet,prefect girl was going to be there. Wait,what did I just say? Ahhhhhh! What am I thinking!? I decided not to scream because everyone was asleep but to just pull my hair out in frustration. I stopped having my internal conflict and focused on something to wear. I finally found the perfect thing. A sleeveless hoodie with a pair of brownish cloth bermudas for the first day that is actually today and a t-shirt and denim capris for the second day. Just perfect! I packed everything like my basic necessities, sunglasses,lotion and all. Then I looked at the time. Holy moly! It's 5 am. Wow! That internal conflict took a while. I went to bed to catch a few hours of sleep for the big day that was actually today.

I woke up a minute later and saw the time. 7:30. That nap seemed like a minute. I had to get up though. I got ready and called my parents who were already prepared to go out. We picked up Pandora and all her friends from Pandora's house. They had assembled there for convenience. I saw that there were 3 girls and 2 boys. I whispered to her," Pss! Hey! Aren't there just 2 girls?" "That's what even I thought." She replied," Little miss Cocoa there decided to barge in and she's from a wealthy family with connections so refusing could do bad for us. I'm so sorry! I didn't want to disturb you like that." "Oh it's no problem at all! "I told her. Suddenly I saw Pandora. As in, I saw saw her. She looked so adorable, with a white flowy dress and a straw hat with a pink bow to match. Add to that some beautiful white sandals and Boom! Perfect Pandora. "You look stunning." I unconsciously told her. She blushed slightly and said," You don't look half bad yourself,Kurt." Wait,what did I just Say? Ahhhhhh! Stupid me,don't do this. Keep it cool. Keep it cool. I just flashed a smile. We started laughing. That's when Cocoa came up to me and looked at me with googly eyes and said," You are Kurt Right? I don't know how to swim! Will you teache Me?" "If you didn't know you shouldn't have come in the first place." I said coldly and walked away. Pandora ran behind me and said," Kurt! You should know better! Don't act that way to her! I don't know what she will do!" I replied," Listen, I dont know why she wants to be so googly and squishy towards me but I'm not having it." "Kurt, come on, I mean you're sweet and good looking and you always think about others. I get why she does that!" I was absolutely shocked at what she said. My heart did a tumble and it made my stomach go into knots. I wanted to thank her but something else came out instead."Then why didn't you!" She stopped. "What do you mean? I know no type of guy would want to go out with me and I'm not even interested in a relationship. I'm 13 for God's sake!" I don't know why I said that. I just told her she was right and walked away. My parents started telling me to come back to the Jeep so we can head there.
The car ride was absolutely silent. Not a soul spoke a word for a good hour until Cocoa decided to open her big mouth." Miss, so how is Kurt at home? " My mom seemed a little taken aback but answered for formality sake "Oh he's a sweetheart! He always does what I ask him to but is very quiet sometimes." Cocoa seemed extremely satisfied and just went on asking questions about me to my mom until I stopped her. I decided to take Pandora's advice and act sweetly to her. "Cocoa, could you please stop? My mom seems tired. You can ask me all you want at the beach." I ended with a wink for good measure. She was over the moon but Pandora seemed a little pissed off. I decided to think about all the questions I had in my mind about Pandora in the rest of the time I had. After thinking and thinking to all the feelings I had with other girls and my girlfriends, I realized that I might have feelings for her. It wasnt possible though. I mean she didn't like me for starters and also how could someone a 16 year old like me like a simple young girl like Pandora. I'm sure I would know if I liked someone. I've been in 3 relationships already. Actually all those three times it was the girl who had confessed to me but I should know something. I Know! I just found a nice friend of the other gender, that's It! I wasn't interested in a relationship with her. Feeling satisfied with my conclusion, I looked out and found we were almost at the beach. I realized another fact then. Internal conversations take more time than we think.
We parked, unloaded and set up camp. That part of the each was empty as it was reserved for campers and there was no one else there. Probably because it was nearing winter but today seemed like a nice sunny day. We all went to change into our swimsuits and go for a dip. I changed into my trunks and went out ready to swim. I saw Pandora there running towards the ocean with a blue and white striped two piece and her hair open. She looked so beautiful. I decided to go ahead and swim with her. "Pandora!" I shouted and waved as i ran to her. She looked around in the water and waved to me,beckoning me to come and join her gang.Suddenly, Cocoa came in front of me and told me, while batting her eyelashes," Kurt, I am so scared of the water. Could you help me in?" I decided to take Pandora's advice and took Cocoa's hand and helped her in. Then i ran to Pandora and said," Hey! I have a ball,want to play?" She turned around and said," Go play with Cocoa." I felt hurt and wanted to shout back but i didnt want to destroy this precious moment i had got to be with Pandora. So i said," Hey hey hey, i was taking your advice and being nice to her. I actually dont care about what she does at all." "Really?" She said as she turned around. I nodded. She replied by throwing water on me ."Right back at you! "I shouted. Our entire group,except Cocoa, started playing.
                           Pandora then suddenly went under the water and started to drift away. She was unable to breathe. She started to drown. "Help..." was all she could meagerly mutter before her conciousness went away. I swam to her and tried to pick her up. Something seemed to be pulling her down. It seemed strong and........human. I dove in and looked. Not to my surprise, I saw Cocoa pulling Pandora into the water. I pushed Cocoa away and pulled Pandora onto the shore. I asked her friends to tale care of her and went to Cocoa. I slapped her in the face. She looked absolutely hurt but at that point I didn't care at all. I told her,quite firmly and on the verge of tears," Cocoa, if you are here to push other people down, please leave. I never cared about you at all. It was Pandora who told me to be nice to you. This is how you repay Her?! She could have died! I don't want you here anymore. Please leave." My mom came running to see what had happened and I told her everything. She just politely escorted Cocoa out. Before she left she just said," Kurt, don't think this is the end of it. I will come back. You will regret taking Pandora's side here." I ignored her and ran to Pandora,she still hadn't regained consciousness. Shit! Shit! Shit! I thought as I gave her CPR(the heart kind not mouth to mouth I wouldn't dare to do that.) She finally spluttered some water out and slowly got up. I hugged her tight and cried just a little. "Thank God! You are Okay! " " Baby Kurt, I'm just fine. Stop crying." "Let me stay like just for a while." I asked her. Everyone else hugged her too. It was peaceful in those few moments. Everyone left her and I narrated to her what had happened. She apologised and said that Cocoa might do something to me and it would be Her fault. I told her nothing like that would happen and it was fine because this was the right thing to do. By this time, it had become dark and it was time for barbecue and bed. The food was absolutely delicious with stores as desert. We all went to sleep. Un fortunately,I couldn't sleep with Pandora. I slept with the 2 guys that came along.
I was suddenly woken up in the middle of the night. I saw the time. 3 am. I decided to go outside the tent for a while. I saw Pandora sitting wrapped up in a blanket on a sofa facing the beach. "Hey." I said. She didn't reply. So I peeked in. She was sleeping, her eyes closed, seeming to have a good dream. She looked absolutely adorable. I chuckled and tucked her in a bit."Good night, sleepy head. "I muttered. "Kurt.." She said in her sleep. I stopped absolutely astonished. I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks. What's wrong with Me! I thought as I held my cheeks. I decided
to sleep there. I grabbed a blanket as it was cold and went to the sofa and slept. I woke up again and saw the sunrise. It was too beautiful to miss. I woke up Pandora quietly and told her to look. She jumped up and ran out. She spread her arms and breathed deeply. Then she held her arms together and started to shiver. There is a height for stupidity, I thought as I put a blanket around her. She thanked me and looked out. I looked at her and giggled. "What's so Funny! "She asked me. "You look like a little kid who's seeing the sun for the first time." She just posted and took in the sun some more. We went back to the tent and slept again.
I woke again at 9 am. We were to leave in an hour. My parents were already packing. I woke up everyone. We helped them pack. It was a fun trip. I looked at Pandora who looked a little disappointed to leave but helped pack anyways. We left everyone at their houses and went home to unpack. On the way home my mom asked me," Kurt, so who is that adorable girl you Like? "
" Mom! I don't like anyone there!"
"Honey... I saw you blushing madly when she said your name in her sleep. I was awake. "
"Mom! Don't spy on people like That! "
The conversation ended there but my thoughts didn't. I thought and thought about it and came to a conclusion.

I think I liked my best and only female friend.