thirteen reasons (min yoongi bts) #bangbangtanawards2017

flashback

before yoongi disappeared...

it was taehyung's birthday and everyone was there. and by everyone, i mean 23 of his idiot friends. they were all singing happy birthday, cheering, laughing, singing, and dancing. nothing was wrong, everything was great.

yoongi's pov
"oh, hyung what are you doing out here? it's freezing" jungkook and kunpimook appear, bringing an extra blanket to wrap around their hyung. he smiled, knowing that they cared. although they don't know why he was smiling, they smiled smiled back.

"have you..." i paused before continuing, thinking if i should say it or not... i should ask though.

"have you ever... seen or experience something that you either didn't or want to see or hear?" i ask, turning towards them. they both look at one another, confused

"what do you mean yoongi hyung?" kunpimook asks

"like... what if a friend, betrays you... how would you feel?"

"honestly, i'd feel like our friendship would start to collapse, because no friend should betray one another no matter what" jungkook whispers, and kunpimook nods

"i mean, it'd also depends on how they betrayed you too... but if i had friends who betrayed me... i'd want to get back at them" kunpimook whispers the last part, but the sound of jungkook gasping, makes kunpimook shake his head.

"i mean, like secrets or something, and they're hurting you or someone you cared about... they shouldn't" kunpimook adds, and jungkook nods, understanding his statement.

"have you ever felt like a burden to anyone? or felt like you're not good enough for anyone?"

"yoongi hyung, why do you sound so depressing? it's taehyung's birthday... smile" jungkook turns, facing his hyung

"how much do you like taehyung?" i ask, and immediately his cheeks turn into a dark shade of pink, causing kunpimook to giggle at his reaction.

"how about hobi hyung?" i ask, and jungkook's smile lightly fades away, and he thinks

"i like him too, hobi hyung is cool, helpful and nice" jungkook smiles

"has he done anything to you?" i asked, but immediately feel like slapping myself in the face

'shut up yoongi' a voice in my head tells me.

"mmm, nope" jungkook hums, shaking his head.

"hi, hi, hi" youngjae enters, smiling and waving at each of us.

"how much do you like your hyung?" i'm curious.

"you're a cool hyung, yoongi hyung" youngjae replies, smiling once again causing me to let out a small chuckle.

"i meant jaebum, child" i reply, and instantly his eyes light up, as if he was a kid in a toy star and they saw their favorite toy.

"jaebum hyung is very kind and sweet... and he tells me everything" youngjae replies once again, smiling brightly.

"are you sure?" i ask for the last time, he just nods.

"you guys should go inside... it's getting cold" i try to push them back inside, but jungkook being the last one to enter out of the three, turns around with a serious face.

"yoongi hyung, you too. you could get sick or something" jungkook firmly states, "if you won't then i'll stand by the door, waiting..." jungkook states once again, standing by the door, allowing yoongi to whisper one last thing outside before re-entering the party.

"betrayed by friends... what goes around comes around whether i'm there or not..." i whisper, before turning around and walk towards jungkook.

3 weeks later
third person pov

"he hasn't been picking up his phone, no one's home, there's no sign of him!" jimin shouts, frustrated over the fact that his favorite hyung is missing.
"where did we all last see him?" seokjin asks, looking at everyone

"kunpimook and i last saw him at taehyung's birthday party. we were just talking" jungkook answers, everyone giving him their eyes and ears.

"did he mention anything?" hoseok asks, jungkook shakes his head. clearly forgetting a question that yoongi has asked him, which could've been used as a clue.

"have you ever felt like a burden to anyone? or felt like you're not good enough for anyone?" - yoongi
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a/n: it's 4:02am and i can't sleep .-. so sorry if this doesn't make sense