thirteen reasons (min yoongi bts) #bangbangtanawards2017

hurt (1/2)

(A/N: every time yoongi talks, I'm just gonna leave them in italics instead of putting them in italics and quote form)
as everyone starts settling down while eating their pizza, jaebum grabs the second cd and pushes it into the dvd player.

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i'm so tired right now, what time is it?...

as he stands to go, grabbing his phone, he sighs and sits back down.

it's 4:35pm, oh man. i need to sleep more. but anyways, right now you are listening to the second part. and you may be wondering.... who's next on the list? well horse, it's you

hoseok just groans, uncomfortable with what he has to say.

mr. jung, horse face. don't worry, everything will be just fine. but we know that if you keep hiding secrets, then someone will eventually find them out right?... don't you think it's funny when you see someone criticizing the other person for doing something wrong and dumb? but what makes the tables turn, is when they realize how much of a hypocrite you really are...

taehyung looks at jimin, wondering if he knew. and well no, no one knew besides hobi.... and one more person.

i remember you how you scolded jaebum for trying to make a move on youngjae, even though at the time he wasn't interested. you kept telling him it makes him uncomfortable, and such. it was funny. just like how you scolded namjoon for his rash decision. but you know what, you actually didn't have the right to say to them, nope.
Pause

hoseok quickly presses the button, with his back still faced towards his friends

"hoseok hyung, move"

"no"

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nope, because what you did to our young bunny would definitely burst taehyung's bubble

"what?!" taehyung shouts standing up, face now filled with worry and slight anger

we all know how much taehyung likes jungkook and how blind jungkook is. but it's not his fault, he just doesn't wanna get hurt... which i'll explain later, but yeah... hoseok, why'd you do it? were you curious or something? you knew that he didn't like it, yet you tried...

Pause

and at that moment, eyes were on both jungkook and hoseok, lost and confused. jungkook just dismisses himself, into the bathroom and a long silence appears... that is, until taehyung gets up, hoisting hoseok up and slamming him against the wall. and by the look on everyone's face, they were all quite shock by his actions

"what does he mean?!, what did you do to jungkook? and why did it say that you did something, even though it made him uncomfortable?!" taehyung kept yelling, causing namjoon to jump in and pulled them apart.

"fine, we'll find out anyways..." taehyung spats, walking back to the couch and just sits as if nothing had happened. that is, until jungkook appears, confused with what just happened

"what?" everyone just stares at jungkook, no one answering his question

"what did hoseok do to you?" taehyung whispers, looking for answers in jungkook's eyes... but nothing, just confusion.

"what?" jungkook asks, clearly confused... taehyung just eyes hoseok before pressing the play button.

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we all could clearly tell how much v and jungkook liked one another, yet too oblivious from one another. kids, i swear. but it's funny how people thought that you had a thing for v... because did you really? well, no. you had a thing for his bunny, surprise everyone. hobi, why did you think that fake liking v would get kookie to like you? because well oh well, he didn't. that just made him despise you because he thought that you were trying to steal his alien away from him.

"alien" jackson snickered, jungkook just throws a pillow at jackon's face, causing kunpimook to let out a little chuckle.

kookie is very innocent, we all know that... but does that really mean you get the chance to take advantage of that? are you nervous now? are you surprised that i said that? good you should. just like with namjoon, this - what you did , makes me so so disappointed. you are usually our sunshine, the one who knows right from wrong... so what the actual fuk were you thinking when yo-

Pause

"advantage? you took advantage over him?!" taehyung was about to throw fists at hoseok, but jaebum and namjoon just stops and blocks him, telling him to sit back down so they could all understand what was about to be revealed.

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-were you thinking when you decided to call kookie over to have a little "chat" with him? did you forget that i was still upstairs, or something... did you forget that you were staying in my house for awhile? well guess what, i heard everything... from him entering, confused, to you giving him a drink, and although he declined it, you still gave it to him. he drank it, and he became wobbly... you knew that it was wrong, but you really wanted him. so you decided to just take it slow, and you started kissing him... he kept trying to push you off, but i guess that the drink you gave him had an effect to it. you clearly knew that he wouldn't remember anything once he wakes up again, so you kept doing it...

what was i doing? i was still upstairs listening to music, and trying to write songs. that was until my stomach started rumbling and i decided to get a snack... not gonna lie, before i saw you two, the sound of jungkook struggling and groaning really made me thought that someone was tryna barge into my house. but when i saw the real thing, it honestly made me want to punch you. there was a weak jungkook pinned to the wall, trying to escape and pleading for you to stop, and what were you doing, nothing. you continued to forcefully kiss his lips, and his neck. but you left no marks. you were about to remove his shirt, but the sound of me bumping into the vase and knocking it down caught your attention. when you turned around, i think you forgot but i hid in the mini closet under the stairs. i just hid there, scared. i'm so sorry jungkook, but when i saw hobi's face, it looked dangerous. again i felt... weak. i just stayed there until the sound of you pleading, "hoseok please.... stop" had stopped. then everything went silent.

and i remembered opening the door slightly to see that jungkook had collapsed, his shirt was removed and you were basically carrying him like a bride, and whispering in his ear, "when you wake up, all you'll remember was just coming over and talking to me and sleeping over" and with that you both were gone.

Pause

once seokjin pauses the video, everyone just freezes for a moment. jungkook runs into the bathroom, throwing up and crying, finally remembering... youngjae runs after him along with kunpimook and they check to see if he's okay. but then the remaining eyes land on taehyung. he's just frozen, looking straight, right at the tv. it takes a few minutes before he starts to curl in fingers into a tight fist, clenching them until they turn white.

"i-i, it's n-not wh-" before hoseok could say anything, taehyung lunges towards him and starts throwing punches. they had only played two cds and people are already either getting abused or emotional. in fact, they're not even done with hoseok's tape. they have just 2 minutes left on it.

as jackson pries taehyung off of hoseok, he just stays there, clearly thinking that he deserved that for taking advantage over the younger. but once jackson steps away, taehyung lunges back to hoseok and starts attacking him again.

"stop...stop!" everyone freezes and eyes land on the voice who begs. jungkook just whispers 'stop' one last time before wiping away his tears. as taehyung and hoseok both try to go up to him, he pushes past the both of them and sits with jimin, who starts hugging him, telling him that its okay, it'll all be okay.

but they both knew that things will just get worse.