MY LOVE,
Today I was in between. I was lonely, then sad, then happy, then angry, and happy and sad again. It was a day of many mixed emotions and I can't even remember all the reasons why. You know that not all my days are good and you've learned the hard way what happens when my mind isn't at its best. I know it's hard for you to understand the tsunamis, thundering earthquakes, and raging fires inside my head, but you try your best. You know I could be in a better state, but you love me through it. You make me wish I could just stop being an anxious mess because you deserve someone who won't wake you up at three in the morning and won't need you to reassure her every single day.
At the end of the day, I just want to be in your arms. I want you to hold me and listen to your heart beating so fast at my closeness. I want to feel your lips pressed to the temple of my head and hear you say that I'm going to be okay and you love me. When I have days like this, I just want, no, I need to hear you say that you love me. It was a miserable and brutal truth when I realized this was just the beginning. There will be many days when I need you like this. I was once made of the solar system. I was the the sun, moon, and stars. Now that's what you are to me. You are my whole sky.
I love you so much it's unfair. I don't know why, but you're pulling away since we last saw each other and it's hurting me. But no matter, I love you anyway. I'm so knotted and tangled because of you. Before I loved you, I knew exactly what my plan was, where I would go, what I would do. Now I'm just scared and messy.
Sincerely,
The Girl Tied In Knots
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My Love
Lãng mạnShe is quiet, never saying much but I love you. Her letters say everything she could never say out loud to him.
