Eventually (Without You)

Chapter 4

And so i did what Dara told me...

I continued working on with my music...

I feel so inspired..

I always work late, so i barely see her..

And i don't like it...

But i can't just leave my work undone..

I wanted to see her, i long to be with her all the time..

I feel like i'm going crazy whenever i don't get to see her or hear her voice...

And so we resolved on calling each other all the time...

In that way i can work and at the same time talk to her..

Know what she's doing, and what she's eating...

Hell even when one of us needs to use the comfort room..

Okay so that was a bit disturbing...

But hey, since i don't get to see her..

Why not go all the way with the call right?..

With that i can imagine her beside me...

Like as if we're in the same room..

Who would've thought that i can actually multi-task?...

But ofcourse as days and weeks goes by..

Her voice isn't enough for me anymore...

I wanted to see her..

To feel her..

To touch her...

We're both living in seoul..

Just 30 mins. away from her..

But we're living like we're some sort of in a long distance relationship...

At times like this...

It makes me think whether or not my decision on staying here in the industry was a good decision or not...

I always whine about her, about how much i miss her, how much i'm wishing that she's with me...

Seeing her once a week isn't enough...

Everytime we bid our goodbyes, i'm hurt...

She may have showered me with her love but..

The moment she leaves she takes a part of me with her..

And so, i come up with a solution...

Convince dara to live with me...

She didn't want it at first...

But gave in anyway...

i feel like i'm the happiest guy in the world when she finally agreed in living in with me...

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I always come home early and continue my work at home...

Everyday was a bliss...

Living with her..

Seeing her everyday..

Living like a married couple, i can't help but feel giddy about it..

Dara...

My dara.. What are you doing to me...

I always look forward to going home..

knowing that someone is waiting for me..

She's waiting for me...

She always welcome me home with her angelic smile..

And she showers me with a lot of kisses..

She always worries about me,not having enough sleep since even at home i always work late..

But i always assure her that i'm okay and she need not have to worry..

Months had passed since me and dara started living together...

Before i was just writting lyrics and working on it's melody...

But now, it's recording time..

And after that comes dance rehearsals, mv making, promotion, and comebacj debut...

My time with her is becoming less..

But my dara, her understanding is endless which makes me even more guiltier...

There were times wherein i wasn't able to come home for two days..

And worst a week!!!

Sajjangnim asked me to stay in our dorm, for it was more convenient...

I can stay up late and whenever there's an urgent thingy going on that i need to be there..

I can rush there without being late....

But ofcourse aside from that...

It's because of dara..

Rumors had been circulating that i'm dating someone..

Sajjangnim asked me to stay in the dorm not just for my carer but for dara's sake...

Sajjangnim is aware about our relationship and he knows how much i love her..

He's protecting our relationship.. And her..

For my fans can be possessive..

Sometimes they act like as if they own me..

And they don't want to share me...

I'm afraid that if we come out in the open now..

Dara will be the one receiving all the hate and wrath of my fans...

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end of chapter four..:-)

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