Eventually (Without You)

Chapter 8

I was just staring at her letter..

Unmoving..

My eyes started to water again...

Tears streamed down my face, just when I thought there was nothing left for me to cry..

Everything was so perfect, I never thought that it'll end this way..

She was Hurting..

I was losing her..

I saw it, but tried to shrug it off..

My illusions and expectations of a perfect relationship was a big lie..

I know that she's not happy..

But because of my selfishness I decided to be blind about it..

I was scared of the thought of her leaving me..

I thought that if I acted normally like  I always do, I can make her stay..

I did not want to confront her..

Afraid of what she was about to tell me..

I was a coward!!!

This is what I get for wanting more..

More than I deserve..

I should've been contented with that small amount of light..

I shouldn't have crossed the line..

Thinking about the pain that I've inflicted on her..

How I crushed her, ruined her..

I can't help but feel disgusted  myself..

I know I'm not capable of making her happy..

But I was too damn selfish...

As I was trying to recall the last days I've spent with her before I went to Tokyo..

It was evident, her cold tone that sends chills to my body..

Making me cold as well..

She was trying to smile, but failed, for it never reaches her eyes..

Everything was different..

We're slowly falling apart..

It's hard to go around each other..

So I thought we needed some time off..

To clear her head.. And mine as well..

I wouldn't be an ass telling you that it never crossed my mind..

But I was sincerely hoping that it won't..

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1 years, 2 years had passed since that very day..

When she decided to walk away from my life..

She took the light with her..

I ended up being thrown away in the dark permanently..

I lost my sight..

Months after the day she left, I thank her..

I tried to convince myself that I like this darkness..

And the empty space that she left..

I became stronger..

I was able to go further..

I still write my music..

Though I can nolonger perform on stage..

She still inspires me, she still has that hold on me..

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..Woah~~~~~ 1 chapter to go.. I feel like crying..T.T

I know that people barely reads this, but I enjoyed writing this fanfiction.. 

Though I got a bit turned off.. and my mind went blank after the incident.. you know, I've read a fiction that was a bit similar to my old plot.. but wow! just wow.. I am now going to end this..

I am aware that  this Is not as great as the other stories you found here in watty.. but I'm really thankful to those who added this piece of shit in their reading list..Lol..

thank you guys...

I'm going to dedicate the remaining chapters on you once I'm done with the final chapter..

P.S.

please do not post my fanfic elsewhere without asking me.. or you know using my plot without my consent.. if you wanted to rewrite this.. pm me and give me proper credits.. thank you!!!^^ and hengsho!!!!

keep the faith applers...

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