{~song for chapter: Just The Way You Are-Bruno Mars~}
Kehlani's POV:
~a month later~
Tahani's 2 months old & is smiling like crazy
She plays with her dad a lot.
I wake up to see my unruly curly hair in a super messy bun
I untie it & I brush it out
I tie it up in a bun.
I take a shower
As I'm showering
I frown & look down to see my tummy
It hasn't gone down since Tahani.
I look awful.
I bet
I'm basically a slob compared to the girls John sees at work.
I tear up & I put my hands & cover my face
I cry into my hands..
I walk out of the shower
I spray perfume on myself
I look & I grab dark lipstick
I put it on & no eye makeup.
I find a black leather jacket & I set up a cute outfit
I grab a ripped loose tee with "Queen Of The New Broken Scene" written on it
I slip on black leggings & I put on the jacket
I fix my beanie & I walk downstairs
John stares at me
"Whoa..um..babe you okay?" He asks raising a eyebrow
Eyeing my outfit
"Yes I'm fine"
I kinda lied there
I feel insecure
The only reason I dressed like this
Is because I wanted to be daring & wear dark clothes like I don't usually do.
"I gotta go Babe..Hayley & I are going out"
I say kissing his cheek
He raises his eyebrow again
"Really on a Tuesday?"
I nod & I adjust my beanie again & I grab my purse
"Bye babe. Bye princess" I say playing with Tahani.
I leave the house.
I get in the car & I buckle myself up
I look at myself through the car mirror
I sigh & my eyes water
"You look awful. You look like a clown!" I mumble to myself
John knocks on my window
"Babe you okay?" He asks
I nod
"You left your phone" he says & I roll down my window
"Thanks" I say grabbing it
"Babe talk to me" he says
I bite my lip & my eyes water
He sees me & reaches in & proceeds to drag me out of the car
I scream
"No John stop!" I say tearing up
He brings me inside
I sit on the couch serious as hell.
"What's going on?" He asks
"Where's Hani?" I ask getting off subject
"I put Tahani to sleep...talk to me damnit" he says
"You really wanna know? Okay. IM INSECURE WHY? Because you hang out with pretty girls & I still have a tummy. My butt has cellulite,my thighs have been & always been huge. My boobs hurt & DAMNIT JOHN IM AVERAGE LOOKING" I say kicking him
He looks at me shocked
I look at the floor with a single tear rolling down my face
He lifts my chin up with his finger
"Your the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. Don't ever talk like that about yourself. Your beautiful. Your ass is perfect..your thighs is perfect. Your tummy? I love it. Babe your a natural girl. The girls I've seen at work are girls who pay big money for fake asses & boobs & to have a thick body..which you have naturally. Babe I wouldn't trade you for anyone in the world..your my wife..my best friend..your everything to me." He says
I tear up
He wipes my tears
"Look at me." He says calmly
I look at him
"Your eyes are so red" he says giggling & putting a tissue on my eyes
I flip him off
"What?" He says smiling
I smile faintly
He pecks my lips
"You are beautiful just the way you are..come with me.." He says grabbing my hands
He walks me to the bathroom
"Take it off"
"What?"
"Take off the makeup" he says
I sigh
"John-"
"Please..?"
I roll my eyes & I grab makeup remover
I start taking off my makeup
After I finished I covered my face with my hands
"Let me see." He says
"No I look like a potato" I whine
He grabs my hands & holds them down
"See? Your beautiful!" He says smiling & wrapping his arms around me
"Your violent" I joke
"Really? Says the girl who was kicking me earlier"
I blush
"I love you babygirl don't ever think about negative shit ever again" he says kissing my cheek
"I love you too & I'll try not to" I say
He kisses me
"Mine." He whispers
"Yours" I whisper back as he intertwines his hands with mines
He kisses my hand
I blush
"When I see your face..there's not a thing that I would change..cause your amazing...just the way you are..when I see your smile..the whole world stops & stares for a while..cause girl your amazing..just the way you are."
