Endless Road

sober

I keep a bottle of champagne in my mini fridge just in case I need to drown my sorrows. I went to my studio to record a song that came to mind I write songs better when I'm sober I called it dsylm it's a song representing how my family pushes me away and expect me to forgive them and believe them Everytime they say the love me I don't give a fuck what they want from me. I've been having mood swings every since daniel called me yesterday it's funny how an outsider cares but my parents don't it's pathetic!!!!!!!!!!

I never thought I'd be this way in my life neither my family either.id rather have nothing and have everything than have everything and still have nothing!!!

I'd be better off dead and gone laying in my grave than here living breathing and dying with every word thrown at me by so called family.

I text daniel and g earlier that day so they wouldn't be worried would I say I'm friends with daniel now...no would I say I'm growing to appreciate this kid... yes!

I am currently hugging myself closely only to prevent having to cry over the lack of physical human contact from another specimen holding me. I am desperately trying to hold back my tears. I'm dead inside and surprisingly I love it! I guess I do I don't know for sure I don't know anything at all i wanna kill myself but I can't bring myself to do it!! I'm weak as hell emotionally that is I'm not physically weak.

I went to the kitchen and made myself some chicken teriyaki and went to the screening room in my house to watch Annabelle I wanted peace. Thats all I want and need

I made myself some popcorn u know what fuck it imma grabbed some junk food and watch sappy ass movies just for the fun of it!

Today's my night imma drink it up and I'll drink it all if I may so yea imma chill and try not to cry it as if that's all I ever do nowadays.😞😞

Omg noooooooooooo why u take him back so quick Jessica (currently yelling at the sa0y movie I'm watching called heartbroken) he cheated tf no u don't love him bitch no walk tf out the door u don't need him!!!!!!!

(10minutes later )
See didn't I tell u Jessica now look he left u for a hoe u. Dumbass butch told ya but noooooooooooo u never listen they never do!!!! (Still yelling at the screen,)

I heard my phone ring

Hello

Uh hey Teyana it's me George

The fuck is George?!!!?¿!

Uh George Thompson u know your neighbor

Oh that weird short kid yea I know him why

Uh I'm george.

Yea I know and who am I?

Teyana

That's my name!

Ugh that's what I said

Yeah

Yes

Yes

Yeah

Yeah

Look yes I just wanted to say it's your mom bdaay tomorrow

I know already

Oh well uh yea

Can I ask u something

Yea

What is it the I'm supposed to be looking at

Huh?

U said look so I'm wondering look at what?

Uhhhhh

Goodbye Giselle

It's george

Yea yea whatever bye

Bye