fools | 2jae

zestien

maybe,

it was a mistake.

a mistake to be alive.

to be living as choi youngjae.

maybe if i wasn't choi youngjae,

i could've had a better life.

maybe if i was just anyone else,

i could've had a better life.

if only,

i didn't trust you so much,

i could've been happier.

you make my life miserable,

park jinyoung.

i hate you,

but,

i love you.

if only,

you loved me the way,

i loved you,

i wouldn't have to be feeling

those paperballs being thrown on my head,

or get post-it notes stuck on my back writing that i'm gay

right now.

i'm gay.

so what if i'm gay?

what's wrong...

why can't i be who i am?

society tells us to be who we are,

telling us not to change for others.

but,

society is the one that makes us want to change.

and in the end,

we're all fools.

to follow what the society say.

fuck society.

i'm not going to listen to bullshit,

if it's the last thing i'll do,

i'll be gay,

for all i want.