fools | 2jae

zeventien

i went to the rooftop after classes that day,

after my mum talked to me yesterday night,

i decided,

i don't want to change,

i want to be who i am.

i don't want to let people bring me down.

i'll show them all,

being gay doesn't mean,

i can't be a normal human being.

i'll show them all.

what are you thinking about?

you seem to be in deep thoughts.

it was jaebum.

what are you doing here?

shouldn't you be trying your best to avoid me?

didn't you hear the rumors of me?

i asked.

i've heard.

but,

so what?

so what,

if you're gay?

you're still a normal human being.

you just have different liking compared to others.

that's all.

it doesn't make you all that different.

he said.

and i looked at him.

and he looked back at me,

with a small smile.

thank you.

i told him.

it's nothing really.

just speaking what's on mind.

he replied.

he's really charming.

i thought in my head,

as i watched him stare into the clouds.

you wanna know a secret?

he asked.

hmm.

i hummed in response.

i used to be like you too.

i used to be gay too.

so there's nothing to be ashamed of.

i couldn't believe it.

was this how people felt when they heard,

that i was gay?

except,

i wasn't disgusted,

i was a little all happy in the inside.

but i thought,

used to?

he isn't gay now,

is he?

i'm pansexual.

he likes pans now?

i thought in my head.

how weird.

i like both genders.

that's pretty cool.

i said.

do your parents know?

i asked.

yea.

they're cool with it.

how i wish my parents were like his.

honestly,

you're kinda attractive.

you make me feel like,

i'm back to being a homosexual,

again.

my heart started beating,

faster,

and faster.

hahaha.

don't joke around,

i know you're just trying to comfort me.

you don't have to go to this extend.

i told him.

i'm serious,

choi youngjae.

hearing him call my full name.

made my heart go crazy.

it was flying.

it was about to explode.

i know,

it's crazy.

i've only known you for less than 2 days.

and yet we've already,

shared a bed.

don't you think,

it's fate?

my face,

started turning red,

at the thought of yesterday morning,

waking up to meet his face.

it was a blessing.