Oh my Sweet Angel.

Chapter 6

Deans pov...


We ate at the table. Cas sitting right next to me and Sam on my left.
Sam was smiling and laughing talking most of the time. He could always hold anyone's attention. when I turned to see Cas he was starring at me with his big blue puppy eyes and was smiling brightly.
I smiled right back.
"Dean at school there's this one kid who thinks he's so cool but he's really not. He said that he could beat anyone up. but I said that you could beat anyone! he said you were a douchenozzle! but I said you weren't and he said that I was a baby. do you think I'm a baby?" Sam asked.
"Fuck that kid Sam. he's not worth a damn. waste of time. your worth way more than that. if you want I'll beat the living shit out of him. if you have any problems with him tell me, ok?" I said to him.
"Ok Dean I will. but he's the douchenozzle right!" he said and smirked.
I nodded.
"Dean you have a potty mouth." Cas said and I turned to look at him. I smiled and Sam was dieing.
"You should hear some of the things he says. not many people get to hear him actually talk so don't take it for grant." Sam said.
"I wont." Cas said. and looked at me with caring eyes, like I was something worth a damn. I tried to smile at that and I ended up with a grimace.
Jo laughed. "what's that face Dean? you look like someone just killed your puppy."
I shrugged.
"I'm not used to having people look at me. much less talk to me, I'm trying to figure out why Casteil would ever want someone like me..." I said but kept my eyes glued to the table.
"Dean, you are a pure soul. I think your a mystery. I like how kind you are without you even knowing that you are. You take care of people, you put them before yourself. for the first 2 months of school I watched from afar when you gave your last few dollars to a kid who didn't have lunch, or when you would help the kid who dropped their book in the hallway, or even when you let hold a door open for a girl. You never said a word to anyone and I wondered why? why could anyone that nice be so quiet? Who wouldn't want to know you Dean?" he said.
I took a minute to collect my thoughts. he thought that highly of me? I had no words. I looked at him and kissed him on the cheek. "thank you." I whispered to him.
"But I do not deserve that." I said and walked outside I needed air.
I was out side the air was cold it was turning winter. I only had my long sleeve shirt on over top of a ACDC t-shirt.
Why me? God help me.

"Dean? are you alright?" I heard Cas ask from the door way.
"Hmmm." I hummed.
he hugged me from behind.
"I'm sorry that May have been a bit too much. Sam has informed me that you do not talk about feeling to you." he chuckled.
I turned and looked at him.
I kissed him hard. he was surprised at first but melted into it.
"Cas for some reason I'm comfortable with you like I could tell you my life story I could talk for hours with you and it would never be enough time. I love spending time with you. looking at you eyes. feeling the warmth. I've never been close to anyone but my mother and Sam. it's hard for me to sift through everything in my head. Cas for some reason I can't fathom you like me. I-I can't understand why but I'm greatful for it. thank you." I said a bit breathless.
He smiled at me. "your welcome Dean. thank you for trusting me." he said.

"Cas can I tell you something... can I trust you with this secret? It's big like really big. I know we've only really been dating for like 3 days but it feels right.... so I want to trust you with this." I said.
"Sure Dean.... does this mean I'm your boyfriend?" he asked. I smiled
"If you wouldn't mind. then yes." I said. he kissed me.
"I wouldn't mind it at all." he said mouth 2 inches from mine breath light across my mouth.
I grabbed his hand and brought him to the car.
"Come with me. do you trust me?" I asked.
"Yes Dean of course."
"Good."

I drove us to the little pond that I loved when I was a kid it was hidden and only Bobby, me, and Sam knew of it. you could see the stars perfectly out here.
I got out of the car and so did Cas. I walked to the front. Cas met me there. I sighed.
"You'll have to wait for the car to cool before we can sit." I said quietly. I closed my eyes and listened to the crickets and wind. "do you hear that? it's perfect. this was my favorite place to come as a kid. The first time I started to talk again after my mother died, was here." I said. Cas grabbed my hand. I opened my eyes. he was smiling kindly at me.
I felt the car hood. it was ok so I climbed on. and Cas did the same and got close to me.

"Ok so here it is. When I was 6 and Sam was 6months old my mother was... killed. and I escaped with my brother. I watched my mother burn. I ran out the house and called my dad who was working. And I was in shock. the police came and took me but I refused to let go of Sammy. dad came to get us they took us to the hospital. I was scared. my mother... was... gone." I paused this was hard. I've never told any one that I watched my mom die, burn slowly on the ceiling. Cas held my hand tighter. I sighed.
"I was in shock they told my dad. I didn't sleep for 3 days I didn't say a word I stared at the wall and watched Sam sleep. he was a small baby. now with no mom. I promised myself I would take care if him no matter what I would protect him. I was quiet. I couldn't think of anything to say. my dad was really worried. after 3 days of no sleep I passed out. but I had night terrors. my dad... he started to drink. he would be so angry. we moved. I grabbed a few things from our house. and we were living in the car. my dad came to talk to Bobby. my dad practiced hunting... he... we... hunt." I said and I looked at him. he tilted his head. "we hunt monsters. like vampires, werewolves, ghost, etc. it's a lot to take in and you may not believe me but I'm trusting you. you can't say anything Cas please promise."

"I believe you Dean. I promise not to tell anyone." he said. and I looked him in the eye. I have him a fast kiss on the lips and he grinned. and I laid back he laid on my chest. I ran my fingers through his hair. it was soft.
"Anyway. I refused to talk. I raised Sammy. we traveled everywhere. dad would put is in different schools, teach us something's himself. He tried to get me to talk but I couldn't. I went 4 whole years with out a word coming out of my mouth. the first time I killed a werewolf I was 8 years old. I shot him in the heart. he was going to kill my dad. so I just picked up a gun and shot him right in the heart. my dad was surprised to say the least." I chuckled. Cas hugged closer.
"That's quite traumatizing Dean." Cas said into my chest. I shrugged.
"I guess it is but, that's when I started hunting. I liked helping if I could. I took care if Sam, I stole, lied, cheated, I did what I could whilst we were in shitty motels, moving form town to town. I still said nothing. but every once in a while we would come to see Bobby and Ellen. they were only dating then but still I liked Bobby. he treated me... different than everyone else did. I wasn't just the stupid kid who couldn't talk, or the "problem kid", I was Dean who had been through a lot but pushed through. Bobby would talk to me. Everyone would rather talk to Sam at least he would talk back. Sam was the better brother still is. I admired Sam he was pure. he reminds me of my momma so much. dad would drop me and Sam of so he could hunt near by. we were supposed to be learning to aim our guns but Bobby would take us out here and play catch with us. he would tell my dad we were kids we needed fun. the first time I talked was to Bobby and I said thank you. dad was there when it happened. he was shocked as was everyone else. Sam was ecstatic. he hugged me and I cried for the first time. I was 10 years old. I cried and Sam hugged me. Sam was 4. after that I would only talk to Sam and Bobby. I refused to talk to my dad. I was mad at him for putting me through everything. I was 10 years old and I wanted to kill myself." I said and laughed lightly it sounded crazy.
"Dean, I'm so sorry." Cas said
"It's fine Cas... I forgave my dad. the first time I talked to him was when I was 12 and he came home drunk and he was mad because he didn't get the job done fast enough and a girl died. he hit me... I woke up and I had a black eye. I was scared of my dad.
He refused to look at me the next day. I walked over to him and said that I forgave him. I didn't care. and I hugged him. he cried. that was he only time I ever saw my dad cry. it hurt." I said getting breathy.
Cas held tighter. he looked up at me and he was crying. I wiped the tears away.
"I forgave him and I pushed forward. Sam would sleep in the bed with me. I would have night terrors every night I still do sometimes. Sam can't sleep now unless he's with me. it's my fault he's dependent on me. and I need him. I don't think I would have gotten this far without my little brother. he's everything to me." I said and closed my eyes. it scared me when I felt Cas kiss me.

"Dean you are the bravest person I know. I think you are... perfect. Dean you are strong. I'm proud of you." he said I felt my eyes prickle with tears as I tried to hold them back.

"Cas your the only person I trust enought to tell you this story. I never told anyone that I watched my own mom... I think your my best friend. I feel something with you. I feel happy and I haven't felt that in years. so thank you." I said. he smiled. it was getting dark.

"Let's go back to my house ok? do you want to ...um sleep over?" I asked.

"That could be fun." he said and smiled I kissed him. his lips are chapped and cold.



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Ok so that's deans story! he's telling Cas everything! will Cas tell Dean that he's an angel? maybe? I just don't know yet...

Dean looks up to Bobby and I think that's so sweet.

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