Oh my Sweet Angel.

Chapter 5

Deans pov...

There was something about Cas that made me want to talk his ear off. which is crazy because I haven't had the erg to talk in a very long long time.

I asked Cas on another date. maybe it was a bad idea. as I thought before everyone that comes around me gets hurt in someway. But I just can't stay away from Cas. He was beautiful. Some how I just feel so right with him, like I don't have to think so hard. It's a bit like hanging out with Sammy. comfortable.

Sam walked in after school.

"How you feeling? better I hope?" I nodded, and half smiled. I held out my hand. he walked over and I grabbed him and hugged him. I was still laying in bed.

"I know I don't say this much but... I love you Sammy. I'm so sorry for everything." he hugged tighter.

"Dean I love you too. you know your the best big brother. I know how hard it is for you. Just stay strong Dean. I'm always here for you. you know that." he said quietly. I felt like crying.

"Momma would be so proud of you Sam." I said to him. he pulled back and smiled. he sat on the bed.

"She would be proud of you too Dean." he said. Yea right. I'm a fuck up and I mess everything up. I snorted.

"Really Dean.... what was momma like?" he asked after a pause. I stole and looked down. I played with a loose strong on the bed sheet. then I looked up and Sam was looking at me.

"She was beautiful, warm, kind, she cared for everyone too much, but she was always there when you needed here no matter what. She would sing and hum. she was tone deaf but you would love it anyway because she would sing full heartily. she was pure. you remind me of her." I said.

He smiled. "Dean. Thanks. for everything really. Your the best." he smiles and hugs me fast.

"Yea yea." I said and rolled my eyes.

"I'm really happy you've decided you want to talk more.... oh and dad said he was gunna visit soon. He really wants to see you. He said in like 2 or 3 days." He said happily. I'm not so happy. Yea I miss my dad and I love him, but he's a dick.

"Um Sammy I have a date tomorrow with Cas so we can hang out after if you want I know Saturdays we usually hang out but... if you want we can all hang out here and watch a movie." I said I never ever brought anyone home ever. so this will be a first. Sam was to say the least surprised.

"Yea that will be awesome! I wanna met my brothers new boyfriend!" I cringed.

Boyfriend... no. no. no.

I was getting a pit in my stomach.

"Dean are you ok?" Sam asked concern in his voice.

I just looked past him. A little too much. I've never dated anyone other than Lisa and that was for 2 weeks.

"Dean I know your crap at emotions and they scare the shit out of you but I can tell Castiel really likes you. And he makes you talk which is like pulling teeth from an alligator, believe me. So stay with it Dean everything will work out." he said and patted me on the shoulder.

"Mmm" was all I could say.

Later that night Sam climbed in the bed with me, like usual. he was something safe, warm, just like mom was. I enjoyed spending time with Sam. He was really smart and he felt with my crap, not like he had a choice but still. I thank the heavens that Sam is always there for me. I snuggled closer to him.

The next day I woke up feeling much better but my throat hurt. Probably from so much talking as of late.

I guess I'll text Cas.