Unforeseen Love (A Shoey Fanfic) [Cancelled]

Chapter 1 - Closeted

[Joey's POV]

"Gay," "Faggot," "Homo." These comments are always the most memorable on my videos. Ever since Shane kissed me 6 months ago, I knew for a fact that I was gay, and I didn't need strangers mocking that besides the fact that I haven't told anybody yet. I try to use the majority of the comments that always compliment me and how many people care about me to outshine the hate that is aimed towards my assumed sexuality. I know I'm flamboyant, but really? I don't think it's anyone's business to know I'm gay until I feel comfortable to tell, especially if it's to millions of people I don't know, fans or not. Oh my goodness gracianyas, sassmaster up where? Up in here!
Even though I'm honest and open with myself, and confident, I've never been able to love anyone besides myself. Self-love and confidence is important, but I think I'm ready to find someone and settle down. Well, millions of people already ship me and Shane Dawson, and the constant teasing and collaborating we've done to each other has made me develop feelings for him, but I'm just not sure of what those feelings are. Not to mention, my newfound obsession with Lana Del Rey isn't helping with my moodiness either if you know what I'm sayin. But he has Lisa; he's straight, and they seem to be happy together and I don't want to jeopardize a healthy relationship just because I'm not in one. I'm in a confused state and I don't know if I can see him as often to remediate the confusion, then again how can I disappoint our fans and make him feel lonely, after all, I seem to be one of his, if not the, closest friend he has. He doesn't hang out with a lot of people that used to, and I'm glad to be there for him. I love him as a friend, but I'm not so sure if that's an understatement. Maybe if I go to the gym for a couple hours I can really get my mind off of things.

[Shane's POV]

Ever since THE KISS on my main channel, I've done so many more videos with Joey revolving around our millions of fans shipping us together, and since the kiss I was sure I loved Joey. I haven't told anyone, especially Lisa. Lisa believes that I love her, and I do, but she's not the only one and my feelings for her are dying down as my love for Joey grows every time he teases me for the sake of comedy, and I'm sad to say that comedy will be the only reason he'll ever treat me with intimacy. Joey and I get our fair share of homophobic hate now, but him more so because of the fact that he's very flamboyant and I have a girlfriend, still in denial yet well knowing that I'm gay. She's my cover up for when people do call me gay, and I feel selfish and like a pussy when I see Joey just absorb the hate but hide it so well so he's not affected my it. I look up to him, his confident personality; it makes him an easy candidate for the Trevor Project, to reach out to LGBT Youth and help them overcome bullying, it's what he does and has to deal with every day online. He's the sweetest and most gorgeous man I know, evident in the fact that he's the man I love.

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Shootity Shoot Shoot! This chapter really focused around Joey and Shane's feelings for each other and about themselves, obviously. I plan on building my story line around their videos together shortly after they upload them, because the story has so far played out in present time (October 2013.) Thanks for reading, and please leave suggestions and recommendations, they would really help how I write and structure my stories! - Brandon