Why? || Kim Taehyung

23

"Those things you want to know right now, are the reasons why Jungkook committed suicide,"

"R-repeat that again," I closed my eyes shut and clenched my fists tightly.

A sudden pain shot up in my head as the familiar scene of Jungkook lying in the bathtub replayed again behind my lids. I slowly opened my eyes again and spun my chair around to face my cousin whilst trying to process the information in my head.

"The reason why I don't want to tell you, and the reason why I'm so overprotective of you is because of this. I don't want history to repeat itself all over with you," Yoongi oppa said, running his fingers through his slightly damp hair.

Tears unknowingly formed and blurred my vision. "I... I'm confused..."

"The reason to Jungkook's death was because he found out about the whole thing..." He explained. "And seeing how your close with Taehyung and TaeKwang, I feel uneasy,"

I set my elbows on my knees and rubbed my temples with my palms, trying to get rid of the image of the decaying face of Jungkook. My mind was clouded with that one scene, no other thoughts from that. Even Taehyung didn't come into my mind when my cousin mentioned him. All I could think of was the horrifying scene I witnessed three months ago.

Yoongi oppa must've noticed the panic in me because he instantly rushed to my side and wrapped his arms around me. "I promise to tell you one day Jiwoo, but not now," he whispered, patting my head gently. He pulled away and squatted to get into eye level with me, then wiped my escaping tears away. "Aigoo, look at my baby cousin crying,"

I couldn't help but crack a smile and softly punch his shoulder. "I'm not a baby..."

"Hey now, you don't want a horn to grow on your bum," he grinned.

[a/n: if u guys don't know, there's this saying/joke in korea that if u laugh or smile just right after crying, u grow a horn on ur butt.]

"Stop it," I broke into a wider grin and let out a few giggles.

"There we go, you're smiling again," oppa broke out into his usual gummy smile and grabbed hold of my cheeks, stretching them out.

"Lwet gwooo," I whined, trying to talk whilst my cheeks were still being outstretched.

My cousin finally let my cheeks go and stood up. "Forget whatever I said just now and sleep," he said, patting my head gently. "I don't give a damn about your insomnia, just try your best to sleep. I'm not leaving until you get your ass in that bed,"

"Okay okay," I sighed, making my way to the bed.

When I finally climbed in and tucked myself with the bedsheets, Yoongi oppa lazily walked over to me with a soft smile. He leaned down and pecked the top of my head, ruffling my hair afterwards.

"Night Jiwoo,"

...

"You didn't sleep, did you?" Yoongi oppa asked, raising his eyebrows as I came downstairs with my bag.

To be honest, I was afraid that the nightmare would come back again and I ended up studying the whole night. I shook my head and sat on the dining table, eyeing the fried rice in front of me.

"You better not doze off during class," Yoongi oppa poked my forehead with the end of his spoon, and then started eating his rice.

"I won't," I reassured him.

After our breakfast, both of us headed to school and separated in the hallways. Fortunately, Taehyung was present today and I was relieved by his presence.