Half A Heart Without You

Chapter 20

After a while of sitting down watching tv with Sophie harry and Sammy came. Sammy noticed that something was wrong so she decided to take sophie and go. I really wanted them to stay for dinner but its my fault for making Ricky mad I should have have not mention niall. I knew it would upset him and I still mentioned niall. why do I always ruined every relationship I have? why cant I just keep my mouth shut? after a while of thinking I saw ricky going to the kitchen so I followed him

"Are you still mad at me?" I asked ricky

"No I just need you need you to be honest if I broke up with you now will you go running to him again" ricky asked.

Will I? of course not niall broke my heart I need to forget him. Thinking of him is ruining my relationship with the father of my unborn child

"no I wouldn't I love you that's all the matters"

"no jaz it not enough, I need you to be honest I know you still have feelings for him but I don't want to be second choice I want a relationship where you only think of me and love me only , not love me and another guy" 

"what are you trying to say"

"i want you to choose"

"i already did I choosed you"

"are you sure because every time we talk we end up talking about your ex boyfriend"

"I'm sorry okay I'm trying, I can try harder just give me a little more time"

"Jaz how will you feel if we were talking about baby names for our kids and I end up talking about my ex girlfriend"

"i will feel hurt and that's how you are feeling I'm so sorry" I said in realization of what I just said. I lost niall and I cant lose ricky I need him.

"see you finally get what I'm saying "

"so what are we gonna do" I asked in fear I don't want to hear those words I don't want this to end I just moved in with him i wanted this to work

"i think i should leave you alone to think what you want to do. ill stay at my brothers house just give me a call when you finally decide what you want  to do" he said i just nodded i don't know what to say or what to do i have a messed up life. I decided to call Perrie since she is in town and she is my best friend. maybe she can make me feel better.

"hello" Perrie answered

"hey Perrie can you come over I need a friend right now"

"sure,where are you? whats wrong?"

"I'm at Rickys house ill tell you when you come. you know where ricky house right"

"i do know where he lives and okay ill see you in a few minutes" and that's why Perrie is my best friend she is always there when I need someone other than my sister. Sammy and Perrie always puts a smile on my face when I'm down.

A few minutes later Perrie came and I explained everything to her, she decided to stay the night since she told me I shouldn't be alone because I'm pregnant and I've been crying. all night we spend watching movie and eating .that's why I love my best friend.