Half A Heart Without You

chapter 12

(jaz pov)

I  enter the house and went to search for niall I finally saw him in our bedroom

"hey ni" I said

"hey you actually came"

"yeah so ive been meaning to talk to you about moving to america"

"please tell me your coming I dont want to lose my girlfriend" niall said with his blue eyes looking directly at me to see if I change my mind

why cant he understand I like it here why does his career always ruins everything why cant  I have a normal boyfriend maybe is best if we break up but then again hes my other half I cant lose someone ive been for two years maybe sammy is right I should just give america a try its not like ill be alone ill have sammy sophie the boys the best boyfriend I ever had I sigh in frustration I cant decide im trapped in two sides

"jaz?"

"can you give me time niall I cant decide what I want to do"

"jaz I cant just leave without you why are you so heartless you only think about yourself you dont think about how other people feels you dont really love me dont you" he finishes

"what of course I love you but I cant just pack up and leave with you I have so much memories here ni you have to understand that I cant just leave with you whenever you want"

"the thing is you dont understand we are not gonna stay forever jaz we are coming back in a year you have to understand I have a career I have fans I have to make happy"

"yeah but I guess you care about the fans more than you care about me" I said and ran out the door

"this is jaz runing away from her problems because she is so selfish and only cares about herself" niall scream this  made me turn back and look at niall

"you know what ni you and me are over you call me selfish but you dont even know what I feel your the one selfish but guess what ni you lost me im done with you"

"fine I knew liams words were right"

"what are you talking about"

"when I got the news about america I was scared I knew you were not gonna come with me I knew you were going to say no or make an excuse to not go with me but liam said that if you really love me you'll go with me but now I surely know you dont love me so guess this is it" niall said closing the front door in my face I just stood there what it seems like hours thinking abd crying until I decided to call sammy

"hey how it went"

"not good but can you pick me up I have nowhere to go"

"sure" sammy said she knew well not to question me on the phone 10 minutes later I saw Sammy's car I got in

"what happened"

"niall and I broke up"

"why"

"Sammy I don't really want to talk about it"

"ok ill leave you alone"

when we finally got to sammy's house I saw harry my and sophie

"Hey jaz" harry said

"hey"

"babe can you leave me and jaz alone to talk take Sophie with you" sammy said

"ok love" harry said leaving upstairs with sophie

"jaz what are you going to do"

"I don't know yet but while I was waiting for you to come I was thinking of going back to Puerto Rico with jose and Miguel"

"no you can't"

"why not"

"because ofniall"

"he and I are done im not wasting my time" I said "where can I sleep"

I asked changing the subject

"you can sleep in the guest room next to Jose's"

"okay" I said going up the stairs up to the guest bedroom I just laid there thinking what I was going to do until I fell asleep