PRESENTing the PAST (KiefLy)

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Kiefer's POV

I just stood there in the shower. I think I'm here for almost an hour already, but I don't care. Kasi alam ko when I step out of here, kailangan ko na namang ipakita na malakas ako, na okay lang lahat.

We lost. We lost our chance to be in the finals. We're eliminted from the final four at ang sakit lang talaga para sakin thinking that that's my last game in UAAP tapos talo pa.

Yes I get the season's MVP again for two straight years pero that's not my goal eh. That's not our goal. That gold medal was what we wanted.

I felt like shit kanina. Sinisisi ko talaga yung sarili ko. Wala akong nagawa for the team. My shots wont fall in and turnovers hurt so much. I wish I've been better.

I sighed again. If only she's still here with me like she was four years ago, I know she can make me feel better. She always knew how to make me feel better. Kahit nga presence lang niya nakakagaan na ng loob eh.

Ano ba naman Kiefer. Sabi mo naka move on kana? Bakit ganyan ka ngayon?

I don't know anymore, seriously.

I stayed in the shower for a few more minutes blaming myself sa lahat ng nangyayari. Bakit ba lahat ng gusto ko nawawala?

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I fix my myself for the very last time and tried to look confident kahit na nanginginig at kinakabahan talaga ako.

"Okay be ready guys. We'll be live in in 3 2 1!." Shouted the floor manager. I'm with tito Boy ngayon, interview of course. TWBA.

"Magandang gabi kapamilya. With me tonight is UAAP's two time MVP. Back to back. From the Ateneo Blue Eagles, Kiefer Ravena. Good Evening Kiefer." He started.

I smiled.

"Good Evening Tito Boy. Thanks for having me here."

"It's our pleasure. So let's start. Does it sinked in already? Na your UAAP time is done?" He asked.

"Honestly? No pa po. Ayoko na lang isipin. But I know some things will really come to an end kaya kaylangan nalang tanggapin"

Ahem. Double meaning po yun. Haha. Joke lang.

Then he asked me about different things. About our lost, about the team, what's next for me and others pa. Then came to this topic.

"So we're really curious. Actually, I'M really curious. Kamusta naman ang puso mo ngayon?" He said with a laugh. Tito Boy talaga.

"Uhm. Pwede past?" I kidded. Tumawa naman sila.

"Ayaw mong sagutin. Ganito nalang, I'll ask you some questions then yes or no ka nalang. Eto nalang yung Fast Talk natin ngayon."

"Lovelife ko po talaga? Fine fine, I know I can't do anything about this anymore naman eh" Tawa ko nalang.

"Aha ha ha. Okay, first question. Are you in a relationship?" Direct to the point talaga. Natawa naman ako. But I answered anyway.

"No" nagreact naman yung audience.

"Seriously, wala po talaga" I continued.

"Are you eyeing someone now? Or what do you call that." Tito Boy laughed.

"Eyeing talaga. Hahaha. Uhm I'm not sure? But no is my answer." Sabi ko nalang.

"Lahat ba ng babaeng niligawan mo nag yes sayo? Yung honest" He asked again.

"Yes" Totoo naman ah.

Grabe yung audience. Ang ingay.

Tito Boy chuckled.

"Grabe. How many EXes do you have?"

"I can't answer that with a yes or no eh. Hahaha"

"Hindi talaga sumagot. Eto nalang, Naging brokenhearted ka na ba because of a girl?"

Natigilan naman ako. Hayst. If you only knew Tito Boy. Of course, my heart was more than broke that time.

I don't want to share that sa totoo lang. Hindi rin naman lahat ng bagay dapat talagang sabihin eh. We all needed some kind of privacy no matter what.

"Uhm. Maybe? Maybe not. Hahaha. Kayo nalang manghula" I hide my feelings with a laugh.

While Tito Boy just shook his head, smiling.

"Ang hula ko, Oo. Aha ha ha ha. Okay, last question. No labels needed, no name needed, Are you in love right now?" He asked directly, nagsigawan naman yung audience.

I just smiled.

Maybe the right question would be,

"Have I moved on already?"

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Alyssa's POV

I turned off the TV nung umabot na sa question na yun. Hindi ko na hinintay yung sagot niya.

I was switching channel, naghahanap lang ng pampalipas oras kasi hindi na naman ako makatulog, when I came up to that interview. Of course I recognized him immediately.

This is really the first time simula nung naghiwalay kami na natutukan ko talaga yung mukha niya, kahit sa screen man lang. Freely, no restraint, not caring kung may makakita kasi ako lang naman dito sa condo ko.

Four years ago, I could touch that face whenever I wanted. Those eyes, nose, cheeks, lips. Pati nga yung buhok niya na talagang kinakainisan ko.

But that was four years ago. Everything's different now.

Everything except your feelings -my brain.

Hayst. I don't know what's with me this past few weeks na palagi ko tong naiisip eh. Those memories just won't go out of my head. Our memories before haunting me even in my sleep. Causing my heart to break a little more.

Pero wala na Ly. Pinili mo to. Gustuhin mo mang ibalik, wala ka nang magagawa. He's already moved on years ago. May bago na nga siya ngayon eh.

And I want to cry right there just thinking about it. My mind is in a cycle right now, but there's one thing that keeps repeating again and again inside my head.

I'm missing him.

I'm missing him badly. Just like how I keep on missing him for four years already.

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