Winter Memories.

Chapter 2

i hear his friends laugh at me and make jokes before he stand with me and helps me stand straight to keep me from now falling over as more people laugh at me and say rude comments i can feel hot tears in my eyes but i refuse to let them fall as i hide my face

"where is she...i wanna leave" i said in a cold slurred voice

"she's not here i'm taking you home sky ...can you walk?......"he says in a calming voice

i shake my head as my legs don't seem to wanna move before i can't feel the ground anymore as jackson lifts me up and carries me to his car as i heard more mean comments and booing behind us as i held him tight.

"where do you live?' he asked putting me safely in the passenger's seat

i knew my mother would kill me if i came home like this so i shook my head and tried to sit up

"i get it...you can stay at my place till you sober up ok....."

may 15 2007

saying yes to that was the worst mistake i ever made because by the time i woke up in the morning i wasn't in the car anymore i was in a strange room .in a strange bed with a pounding headache as i sat up and realized i didn't have my shirt on i used my arm to cover my bare chest as i looked around the small room only to see clothes of mine spread across the whole room

i felt the bed move as i looked over and saw jackson laying next to me.from where i could see i knew he was shirtless but i prayed that he had pants on,that i wasn't that stupid. i quickly grabbed my clothes and slipped them on carefully to make sure i didn't wake him up, as i carefully pulled on my jacket i heard a small noise behind me as i knew he was waking up i turned around

"hmmm........" he sits up rubbing his eyes before looking at me

"jackson...." i said in a fearful voice as he stared at me

"sky!....what the.....oh no...." he said sounding confused

"did we...?' i said under my breath

he looks at me before nodding his head, i began to breath fast and pace in circles. he stood up and i'm quick to cover my eyes once i see he has no pants on, he hurries to get dressed before grabbing me by my shoulders and looking into my eyes

we sat on the bed as he tried his best to calm me down but all i could think is how stupid i was to get drunk and sleep with a guy i barely know,tho i have liked him for two years i mean this isn't how this all works.

"sky im so sorry....we were drunk and didn't know what we were doing....." he said in a calm voice

"can we just forget it all happen...you can go back to your life and i'll do the same..." i said sadley

"sky please...i really do like you....like you told me last night..." he said staring at me

i had no idea what i said last night nor did i think it had anything to do with this,

"i.....have to go...." i said standing up quickly and grabbing my bag before racing to the door and before he could get a word out i was in a taxi on my way home, now the hard part,what do i tell my mom.

the yelling and screaming went on for nearly two hours till i ended up in my room sobbing into my pillow and dreading going to school the next day as i just wished i could die in my sleep and let this horrible nightmare end

may 16 2007

the next time i opened my eyes my small room was filled with dim light 5:30 am read my clock as i got up and got ready for school trying hard to forget the weekend altogether

"you got this sky" i told myself before leaving the house ignoring the cold stares from my mom as i walked to school in the heated morning sun.

i ran thru the door of school with a few min to spare as i walked the crowded halls looking for my friend and trying to avoid jackson even tho my mind told me that i wanted to see him i just kept moving forward till someone grabbed my arm. my mind immediately thought it was my friend even tho my heart prayed differently as i was dragged thru the crowd i couldn't even see who was dragging me.

we came to a gap and my heart jumped at the fact i was with jackson standing in this little dark gap in our schools hallway.he looked at me like i was an animal and if i got the chance to id run as fast as i could to get away, for a moment that was my plan,

"skyler look at me" he said as my eyes stared at his shoes

"what do you want..." i said looking into his eyes