again ; j.johnson

; seven

addie's pov

we ate dinner and we're on our way to brooke's right now. "turn right up here." i pointed at the road.

i felt sick pulling closer and closer to brooke's house. you have to tell him soon, he deserves to know. i was telling myself. but then again he left you.

i pointed at her house and he pulled into the drive.

"you okay?" jack said, cutting the ignition. i nodded my head, staring straight ahead.

"you sure?" he put his hand on my thigh. "you look nervous."

"yeah, i'm good." i half smiled.

jack was starting to get out the car, "uh, can you stay in the car for a minute. i just need to talk to her." i told jack.

he looked confused. "it's girl problems and things, you know." i chuckled nervously, hoping he'd believe me.

he shook his head in disgust. "yeah go, ew." he pushed me playfully.

i got out of the car and walked to the front door, walking in.

i looked at the couch and seen brooke reading to alli. 

she turned her head and looked at me. "mommy!" she screeched, running up to me and hugging my legs.

i bent down so i could hug her back. "i missed you baby." i said kissing her forehead, then ruffling her hair.

"where's your brother?" i asked her, looking in the living room to see he wasn't there.

she pointed towards the stairs. "wanna go get him for mommy?" she nodded and ran to the stairs.

"thank you so much for watching them
brooke, i owe you big time." i told her, walking towards the couch.

"you can repay me by telling jack now." she mumbled.

"i don't think i can do that right now. i'm so scared of what could happen. like what if he leaves ag-." she cut me off.

"what if this, what if that. life is a bunch of what ifs. you never know what could happen, and yes that's scary, but you need to be the bigger person here and just tell him. he deserves to know." i sighed.

"i know, but i can't tell him right now, he has to go back on tour and stuff, i don't want him to worry about everything."

"let him worry, he should worry. i mean it's his kids! you've worried about him all this time!" she yelled.

"i still can't believe you lied and told me you didn't know who their dad was either." her voice saddened.

"i know and i'm such a horrible person for not telling you anything and lying about it all." i put my head in my hands and sighed.

"mommy, what's wrong?" jace said, tugging at my shirt.

i wiped a few tears that slipped and looked over at him. "mommy's fine, gimme a hug." he smiled and walked over to hug me.

"i missed you mommy." he cried out. "i-i missed you too buddy, don't cry." i teared up thinking of how horrible of a mother i am.