Migraine

My Pain Will Range From Up Down And Sideways

"Guys" I called as they walked away, "I really don't have the time to be deciding something like this. Our band is in full swing and I have to write songs and music and my life cannot deal with anymore stress right now."

They were still walking away and not turning back to me.

"So what, this is it your not going to talk to me until I choose?" 

All of a sudden my head started ringing and I fell to the ground screaming. It felt like the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. It was as if someone was taking a knife and stabbing me in the back of my head and steadily applying pressure. With each breath I took the pain got worse. Then my vision went black.

I woke up back in the hospital with Josh and Jenna in my room. When my eyes opened they rushed to my bed side.

"We are so sorry we put you through this the doctor said he think stress caused the migraine but he wants to do more tests. We know that we caused this and now was a bad time to bring this up. But we are tired of being strung around like this. We will back off for a few more days but that's it" Jenna said crying and walking out of the room with Josh. 

My doctor came back in and told me I was free to go while handing me a bottle of pills for migraines. I walked out of the doctors office and outside to see my car in the parking lot. I got in and found a note: 

"If you don't choose Jenna you will regret it  

Love, the biggest Jyler shipper ever 

Well isn't this great now I'm getting death threats. I drove home and went straight in my room and laid on my bed and got on my phone. I checked all social media and saw my news feed consisted of death threats, #Jyler or #Tosh, or random political crap so I just turned off my phone. I sent some emails trying to get our band out for some live shows. Within 5 hours I had 15 shows booked which means we are going on a small tour. 

I tried to call Josh and tell him but he would answer so I ended up texting him the details and where he needed to be. This whole ignoring me thing isn't going to work for long. 

*1 Month Later* 

We packed everything in the bus and got ready to go on our tour. Josh was back to his usual self and was happy and talking to me. We got in the bus and chilled until we got to our first destination. During the ride we practiced and laughed. We played happy wheels and hung out like nothing ever happened. When we arrived at the stadium we unpacked quickly and did a quick sound check then headed to the back of the stage.

"I'm really nervous do you hear those people outside, it sounds like there is a lot of them." I said pacing back on fourth.

"It's going to be ok,  you're going to do great like you always do. There is nothing to worry about, the worst that can happen is you forget a lyric. If you do hold the mic out like you going to let the fans sing and then pick back up when you remember" he said calmly. "Oh and don't forget to put on a show that is what they came to see after all."

Little does he know I'm going to make my decision today, I just hope I follow through with it.

We get on stage really hipper and energetic, we get halfway through the show and I decide I'm going to say it now. As Goner is playing in the background I start talking.

"Know if most of you follow along everything in the social media then you know about the choice I have to make. And let me tell you this is not the easiest thing I have done before. But I know it needs to be done. I can't imagine my life without any of these people in my life. Josh, Jenna will you please come over here. These people are very important to me that's why I choose neither and I'm going to be friends with them. No romance no mixed feelings and no being dragged around."

I turned around and started walking to my best friends then everything went in slow motion. I heard a bang and Josh and Jenna started running towards me and fans were screaming. I felt something warm on the back of my neck and touched it and brought it to where I could see it and it was blood. Then everything went back to normal I started falling and screaming in pain. It felt like I was shot, my vision went black and the only thing that I could think was. This is happening way to often for my liking I'm going to need a life time membership to the hospital. 

I woke up in the hospital again and yet again Josh and Jenna were both there and so was my mom. They were sitting around my bed crying and not saying anything. I tried to say something but as soon as I opened my mouth my head started hurting again. So I closed my mouth and just cleared my throat. Mom was the quickest to me telling me to be quiet and not to move. 

"Don't talk just lay down and be quiet, it's not good for you to be moving. The gunshot wound is still fresh you are going to be here awhile while that heals. But Tyler that't not all, they found a tumor in the back of your head. They cant do any surgery to get it out right now because of the gun shot wound. But depending on how fast you may not make it." She said crying, I couldn't believe what she was saying. All I have to do is just lay down and either die or live, great. 

**HEY OK QUICK SIDE NOTE I DO NOT MEAN ANY HARM WITH THIS CHAPTER MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS WITH THE VICTIMS FAMILIES OF THE SHOOTINGS. I HAD THIS IDEA FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND IT WAS TIMED AWFULLY 

QUESTION? WERE YOU #JYLER OR #TOSH

ANSWER: I HAVE NO IDEA I WAS MORE #TOSH TBH