My Life

depression

Have you ever woken up and not wanted to get out of bed because you feel worthless well I do sometimes I remember waking up one morning and my mom coming in my room saying get up it is almost 1 in the after noon so I said ok hang on and she left and I got up and went to the bathroom and locked the door and I remeber just asking god to take my life because I felt worthless and unwanted because at school its hard enough I feels like they all look at me with discuss on their face but I am the one in the group that is quite the that wears jackets in summer cuz she is scared to show off her arms cuz she made a scar on them from a cut or just insecurities you know yea I have a friend who cuts a lot more than me but she stopped she is beater and I'm not I feel like no one wants me but I have 2 people who saved me my 2 closest friends their names are Janice and Susana or lemonnmocha (Janice) the123no (Susana) and I wouldn't be here if weren't for them I swear I sometimes just feel like crap and I sometimes cry myself to sleep because of all the crap

Right now my grandma just got out of the hospital and she can barley remember me when she wakes up and she was my best friend but she left me one day for a guy and she is bad now but its not the same and she is another huge reason for my depression and my aunt died a few days after new years this year she was super close to me too and god this world is hard the song up there is a song I listen to when I am depressed idk why but it is that it for now bye