✔Eye Contact [BTS Jungkook f.f]

mono | one

Flashback

l.y.m : hey

j.j.k is typing...

j.j.k : hey

j.j.k : what's up?

l.y.m. : I just wanted to give you the homework

l.y.m : you were sick and I noticed you weren't at school

j.j k : cool

l.y.m : yea

j.j.k : thanks

l.y.m : no problem

That conversation.

The one that started everything.

The one that started the friendship.

The one that made me regret ever meeting him.

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I don't remember the exact day we started drifting away.

But I remember something.

We were talking.

I invited you to go to a movie so I wouldn't have to third wheel. But then you said your parents wouldn't let you go.

Then you said we should go to a movie in order to pay up for the other time.

I thought it would be the two of us going as friends.

We would've had a good time.

Of course I wouldn't know how it would've felt like.

You asked if you could invite your friend.

You said you wanted to kill two birds with one stone cause you promised you'd see a movie with her too.

I was okay with it.

Her and I were friends too, having quite a bit of classes together.

So I asked her.

She said yes.

Then we made a group chat.

For the movies thing.

You and her were talking to each other.

You guys seemed pretty close.

You called her 'mommy', and she called you her 'son'.

We never had any names.

No nicknames other than full names.

I felt kind of left out.

But I didn't let it bother me.

I found out that you went to a club.

She was in it too.

I couldn't go because I had something to do that day every week.

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My best friend wanted to come with us to the movies.

The four of us.

You were okay with that.

Even though you both didn't know of each other's existence.

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We went to the movies.

It was early.

So we roamed around the mall.

You needed to buy something, so we tagged along.

Turns out my best friend and you play similar games.

So you connected quickly.

I felt like I was in a blur.

You had a special connection with the other girl.

Something to connect with my best friend.

But I didn't have any of that.

I was just your math buddy.

The one you would go to for math help.

Before we'd never run out of things to talk about.

You even asked me about girls.

And told me things.

I loved talking to you.

But what happened?

It's like as if we went back to our separate lives.

Like these past few months meant nothing to you.

Those nights where we'd have deep talks.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for thinking that I could count on you.

I guess I cared too much.

I didn't have any guy that I could consider as a friend since I came to this school.

All the guys were jerks.

I guess we weren't meant to be.

We're too different.

From different universes.

I'm so stupid for thinking that we could ever hang out.

It's fine.

We're both introverts.

I guess I got tired.

Tired of waiting.

Tired of talking to you.

You always seem uninterested to talk to me.

Is it why you don't talk to me?

I don't know.

You always wanted to hang out with other people.

So I ended up doing the same.

I'm not avoiding you.

I just want to shut the world out.

And I guess you're a part of it too.

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A. N

How was it?

This is just a monologue thing

I think

Hope you like it

I thought of this

And I felt like writing it

Based on real life

And I wanted to express my feelings

Even though that person won't read it

But yea

Byee

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