Everything is so dark and grey and empty. It seems like everyone around me is laughing and having a great time and full of life and colour whereas I'm sitting in the corner in a bubble which doesn't let me join in. It's like my brain isn't working and it's shutting down. I constantly feel so empty and cold and isolated from the world because I don't feel like me. Instead if feels like I'm just watching someone (me) from behind and they are making all these decisions and I can't do anything to contribute to whats happening. I don't feel in control of my life because I am not. Every day I have depressing and anxious thoughts which determine what I'm going to do with that say and most days that means lying in bed and not leaving my room for hours. I have no intentions to see anybody this whole summer. I do not have the energy to pretend like I am okay and pretend I am happy and having a great time. It is all just a lie and it's horrible because I'm not being truthful to the people who I love. I am so empty and there's nothing I can do about it.
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I know this is short and it's not really apart of the story (?) but
it's how I am feeling and as I said in a description this is more
of a dairy than a story so expect a few of these because I can't talk to anyone about it so this is how I can let it out.
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Teen FictionThis is a diary about my day to day life and how I am struggling with my weight and food. I won't be using real names as I want to keep it as anonymous as possible. This could be a trigger to anyone who is struggling with similar problems to me so p...
