His Weeping Willow

Chapter 31

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RECAP:

I stand up and wipe the tears from my eyes, collecting myself as I walk toward the door. I walk back down the stairs and to our room. I unlock the door and slip inside. I close the door quietly behind me and look at the bed. If I had been looking through my eyes I would have seen a sleeping Lilly, but I wasn’t looking through my eyes. I was looking through the eyes of an outsider and I saw a peaceful, sleeping child. She looked so innocent and I was secretly jealous of her innocence.

And in that moment I knew that no matter what I did to try and protect this sleeping angel from the demons of the real world, one would always slip past my walls that I had built to protect her.

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I look around the room and see a shadow on the floor. My body immediately becomes tense. My breathing becomes fast. My heartbeat is pounding so hard in my chest, I think that whoever this person is can hear it. “Don’t worry Daisy. It’s only me,” whispers a soft angelic voice. My eyes dart to where it came from and I see Nicole.

My body is still tense and my eyes grow wide and confused as she begins to walk towards me. “How the fu-…..Wait…Yeah…How the fuck did you know where I was?” I say harshly and in awe. How could she have found me? I’m pretty positive I did a damn good job covering my tracks.

“I have my ways,” she said with a sparkle of mischievousness in her eyes. I began to feel nervous. If she could find me that means…Niall might be able to find me… My heart began to race again and Nicole recognized the look on my face and instantly became serious.

 “Hey, he won’t find you,” she says looking at me with serious, strong eyes. “I wouldn’t let him come near you,” she said getting a little quieter. My interest piqued a little as I began to wonder how she knew everything that had happened without me ever telling her. I look into her eyes with questions boring out of my own. She raises an eyebrow as if asking what the look on my face is.

I shake my head and try to get the thought of people finding me and Nicole knowing a lot about me before I know it myself, out of my head. “He didn’t mean to hurt you,” Nicole whispers looking at me intently. I look away. My heart begins to hurt. It had never hurt this bad before. I clutch my chest and slowly lower myself to the ground.

“Your heart hurts.” Nicole states more than asking me. I nod ever so slightly and Nicole sits down next to me. “You miss him. That’s why it hurts. You want him back.” Her words start to rush into my mind and I don’t even know if they’re right. “I am right. You do miss him and you do love him and just because he got a little hot-headed doesn’t mean that you should run away and dye your hair and change your name.” Nicole states like it’s obvious.

“But…I…I-I don’t know.” I say looking at her. “You’re lying to yourself.” Her expression doesn’t change at all. “What?” I ask a little hurt that she would say something like that. “You’re lying to yourself. You’re saying that the reason you don’t want to go back and see him is because you want to protect Lilly. If he can throw a vase at your head then he could definitely do some damage to Lilly, but you’re lying. That’s not the reason you don’t want to go back.” I stare at her in awe. How does she know so much about me?

“Ok. Then what is my reason for not wanting to go back?” I ask her intrigued as to what she thinks it is. “It’s something you haven’t felt in a long time. Well, two things actually.” I stare at her, waiting for her to continue. “Love and fear.” She says quite simply. I look at her and I open my mouth to protest but she cuts me off. “You say that you haven’t been scared since your dad died and you haven’t been loved since then either. And now you’re afraid to open up to anybody and be loved because you don’t know what to do. You ARE scared. Scared of being loved. Scared of what somebody might do with all the information they would have on you. You have been a runner all your life, Daisy. When someone gets too close to you, you leave. You go somewhere else and you change your name and dye your hair.”

I was speechless. She was right. All of it was exactly right. I couldn’t have put it in better words myself. “Well, I’ve got news for you.” Nicole says looking at me with truth in her eyes. “What’s that?” I ask, not so sure if I actually want to hear the news or not. “You’ve already let Niall in. You’re too scared to admit that he was starting to break down some of your walls. That’s why you really ran. Him throwing a vase at your head just gave you a better excuse. Why don’t you go back and give him a chance? Maybe he’ll prove himself,” she said, seriousness filling her features. I sit silently, staring at her and thinking it over. What if she’s right? What if he was starting to break down my walls? Is that the real reason I ran? I look up after a long moment, bitterness and denial filling my eyes.

“You don’t know me, Nicole. You have no right to tell me what I am or am not feeling. I will not go back to him because he hurt me. I am NOT afraid and I am NOT in love,” I slowly stand up and face her. “Lilly and I will be leaving for a little bit and I would appreciate it if you would just leave us alone until we decide to come back to Mama’s,” I say firmly but quietly so that I don’t wake Lilly. Nicole starts to nod her head in understanding and I look down feeling somewhat bad for being mean to a friend. “Sorry Nicole,” I whisper.

I get no response and I know that she’s gone as I look up and see that I was, indeed correct, she was gone. How the hell did she disappear from a hotel room? We had no windows. I made sure of that. Nicole was a mystery to me. She appeared whenever she wanted with no warning whatsoever. I still don’t know if I like her or not. She sent off a weird vibe whenever she was around.

The thought of going back made me feel nervous. I didn’t want to see Niall, not yet. I kept picturing his face as he threw the vase at my head. It was filled with anger and hatred. Pure hatred. My heart hurt even worse as I thought about him. I felt a single, silent tear roll down my cheek.

My hands began to shake. I walked over to Lilly and climbed back into bed with her. Pulling her into shaking arms, I tried to force myself to sleep. I tried thinking of happy thoughts and I was instantly thrown back in time to when I was still in school with Lani.

A smile made its way onto my face as I began to relax into my memory-filled sleep. Holding Lilly against me, as to make sure that she would not disappear during the night, memories truly started to take over my dreams. I smiled and let my mind take me back to those wonderful nights.

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