Buffalo Sem.

chapter 11

We still haven't talked that much once I got out of the hospital. I began to think of a creative way to even get Iris to touch me. I hated the fact that she was ignoring me most of the time. As I walked to P.E. alone, I began planning a romantic night for Iris. I would need the girls to help me to keep Iris distracted while I fix up the room. I opened up the locker room door and silently motioned for the girls to come here.

"What is it Darling?" Taye asked.

"After dinner I need all of you to keep Iris occupied."

"For what?" this time Joni asked.

"I'm doing something special for her. She keeps ignoring me, and I gotta do something to get her to at least share the bed with me again."

"I'll tell ya this; ya shoulda told her you had cancer… she feels as though ya don't trust her. But we'll help ya." Taye replied.

"Okay, thanks… I'll keep that in mind."

We all walked back into the locker room. Iris just looked puzzled. I smiled at her but she just shook her head and continued to get dressed. She wouldn't even talk to me in public. I then entered the gym. This was the thing that pissed me off, a girl I could care less about came up to me and said 'life will get better just have faith and ask god to help you through this time.' Like bitch don't you think that was the first thing I tried? God is not going to help anyone like me anyways; there is no use trying.

When class was over I decided to just go back to the room and get ready for tonight; there's no use being down here with all these people anyways. I got to the room and started cleaning. My stuff was everywhere. I couldn't concentrate to even attempt to do my homework, I couldn't even sleep. As I was cleaning I found half of the stuff I was throwing around this morning. I only cleaned before I laid down to at least try and get some sleep.

I woke to iris coming through the door.

"Did you skip class again?"

"Yeah, I decided that I needed to clean the room some."

"Thank you it was getting kinda cramped in here. Did you finally get some sleep?"

"Yeah just a couple hours but it's better than what I've been getting."

"You should try and get some more before dinner."

"Yeah, I guess you're right." I said closing my eyes once more. I dreamt of a sweet dream of where I never had cancer and still in her in Buffalo. I dreamt of everything being fine between Iris and I… we never got in much fights, when we did though we would soon make up. I woke up to the sound of my voice saying: "I will always love you, even if one day you forget about me." I sat up and fixed the comforter on my bed.

Iris' face was hidden from me. This caused me to stop what I was doing and climbed next to her. "Why're you crying?" I asked wanting to wipe her tears away but I knew that she would just flinch away from me.

"Why'd you say that… you make me feel guilty?"

"I never meant for you to hear that but sometimes when something confuses me I talk in my sleep. You know that. I was dreaming about what it would be like if I never gotten cancer, and how'd we would just be normal again."

"I don't mean to be different but I just wonder why you wouldn't tell me something like that."

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to keep it from you I just not content with sharing that part of my life."

"I know…"

"Hey go wash your face and we'll go have dinner."

"Okay."

She got up from her bed and walked to the bathroom. While she washed her face I fixed up her bed. She came out the bathroom and I opened the door for her then closed it and locked it as I walked out behind her. I quickly caught up to her and walked as close as possible without touching her. We made it to the cafeteria and I instructed her to just take a seat with the girls.

I came back to the table with our dinners and sat down. Once I finished I winked at the girls and they just nodded their head in reply. I then spoke to them as if I wasn't planning anything. "I'm going to go to the library real quick, I'll be back." I then left; thank god the library was in the same direction as our room. I hurried back to the room.

I soon finished and walked back downstairs and to the cafeteria. When I got to the table I sat down. "So what're you guys still doing down here?" I asked as if I didn't even plan anything.

"They won't let me leave." Iris mumbled.

"Well I'm sure you can go now, right guys."

"Oh, yeah sorry." Joni said.

Iris got up as did the girls. I stayed a little. I caught up with then girls before we split. "Thanks, I owe you guys."

"It no biggie, darlin'." Taye said.

I walked back towards Iris; she got close to the door. This is when I caught up to her. I opened the door for her. She stepped in and noticed music playing, luckily she hadn't noticed anything else yet. "How'd the radio get on?" she said as she walked further into the room then notice that I set up the room as if she was going to get a massage, which she was. "What's this?"

"I'll show you." I grabbed her robe. "Go put this on." She took it from my hands and went to the bathroom. When she came back I ordered her to lie on her stomach on the massage table I ordered a few weeks back and never used yet. She did as I told her to. I pulled the top of her robe down giving me access to her back.

I used oil like the pro's do, one day I would do this. I began to rub it on her back and then massaged it. She would grunt from time to time. I would apologize and keep going until thirty minutes passed. I couldn't help it anymore and kissed the nape of her neck. She turned to look at me. I just told her that she was so tense and had a lot of knots. I turned around when I told her she could sit up. she pulled her robe back on and turned me around.

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"All this, being romantic."

"You're welcome." At that she pulled me into a hug and just held me. My hands wrapped around her waist. I started swaying to the music. She followed me. This time though she kissed me under my chin. This made me very happy. I had gotten some part of her back. I pulled her closer to me not ever wanting to let go.