oblivious ☹ cashton

nine

Calum's point of view;

I straightened my bow, puffing out a breath of air. I gazed into identical caramel eyes in the mirror, glistened with pain and mourning. I combed through my hair until I was satisfied and turned away. Today was the big day.

My outfit was composed of an elegant black dress with heels to match. A sparkly black bow had been placed in my hair because even on days like these, there always needed to be a little sparkle. My stomach sounded like tiny armies were fighting wars down there, but I ignored it. Like I always do.

After smoothing down my dress and giving one last sigh, I made my way out the front door. In the driveway sat an old, beat up car. I opened the driver's side door and stepped inside silently. I continued to pull into the street as emotions hit me, and tears ran down my cheeks. This was actually happening. I cried all the way to the church.

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"Now, Calum Hood would like to step up and say a few words on the departed's behalf."

The man stepped back, allowing me access to the podium. I took one last breath, knowing I had to make this special. He deserved something special. He was special.

I stepped up to the stand, gripping each side as if my life depended on it. I cleared my throat, looking around at the big group of people gathered around. "Hello," I started, nerves running through my entire body. In that moment, I wished that I hadn't been the one selected for this speech. But, he would've wanted me to make it. So, I pushed on.

"As you all know, I was incredibly close to the one we mourn today." Several heads in the room bobbed up and down. "I met him about eleven years ago, on a texting app called Kik. We barely knew anything about each other, but something about him... I just couldn't get enough of it.

"Whenever I was feeling sad or just a little discouraged, he would compliment me. He would say all these nice things that would brighten my entire week. He was truly one of the nicest people I have ever had the privilege to know." At this point, my stomach was screaming at me to 'please, feed it'.

"But this speech isn't about me. It's about him. For a year, I didn't realize anything was wrong with him. Pretty dumb, I know, but as I said, not going to make this about me." I paused, blinking tears back. "He- he was suicidal, obviously. One day, it finally clicked. I finally figured it out.

"And then my life became dedicated to this- this angel that I was somehow blessed with. We later met in real life, and got to know each other so much more. It was truly an honor. However, he just wasn't content. Wasn't happy. And for a little while after his death, I blamed myself. I was supposed to be making him happy, but I failed so, so much.

"However, after thinking about it, I realized it wasn't anyone's fault. Not mine, not any of yours. He just- he wasn't going to ever be truly happy here." I gulped, a tear sliding down my cheek though I didn't want it to. "So, he had to depart. It's sad, so terribly sad, I know. I feel like I've taken it worst. He- he was my life force. And now- he's gone.

"He's in a better place now, though. I'm glad he can be happy. He deserves it." I paused, not hesitating, just thinking. "The one thing that still hurts me is how low he thought of himself. He was truly amazing, such an amazing human being.

"When I told him this, he told me that amazing people change the world. He's never changed the world. Well, this is my message to him. I've told him a million times and I'll tell him a million more." I prepared myself, before looking straight at the casket and saying,

"Ashton Fletcher Hood, you are amazing, and sure, you haven't changed the world. But you have changed one world. Mine."

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this is not the end, this is NOT THE END

there's another chapter lol

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