Chances

06

He actually didn't pick out a bad outfit. He had picked out a grey crop top that his buttons on it, some white pants, and my Jordan 12 University Blue. I did my hygiene then got dressed. I quickly took my Bantu knots out then went downstairs. Chresanto was brushing Jamilahs hair into a ponytail and she looked like she was going to cry.

"What's wrong Milah?"I said looking at her confused

"Why did you let him do my hair he's pulling the ponytail to tight, his big hands keep breaking the rubber bands, and he keeps scratching me with the brush."She said pouting and folding her eyes

"You complain to fucking much calm your ass the fuck down or you not going to this damn party." He barked at her

She stared crying and he snapped his finger in front of her face.

"AYE CUT THAT SHIT OUT NOW!"He yelled causing his voice to boom through the whole house

That didn't do anything but make her cry harder.

"Chresanto calm your ass the fuck down shit not even that serious."I said walking to Jamilah

I wiped her tears away and grabbed a rubber band.

"Let me do it so we can leave."I said nicely

"Fine fuck it meet me in the car."He snapped

He grabbed his keys and walked out the house not forgetting to slam the door. This nigga always tripping I hope he taking them fucking pills or I'm a shove them down his throat. I sat Jamilah in between my legs and brushed her hair then quickly put her hair in a ponytail.

"See that wasn't so hard."I said kissing her cheek "Come here."

I grabbed her hand and brought her to the kitchen I grabbed her a blow pop then gave it to her.

"Come on lets go before he start snapping again."I said

We walked out the house and she ran to the car. I locked the door and saw we had some mail I'll just check that when we get back. I walk to the car and Future Low Life was playing. I get in the car and buckle my seatbelt and Chresanto turns to me with a attitude.

"Who gave her that lollipop?"He asked with a attitude

"I did, why?"I said

"Because why give her sugar when she's going to a party and probably gonna get more then enough of that shit there."He said pulling off

"Well my bad she was upset so I decided to make her feel better."I shrugged

"Here you go with that shit again."He chuckled

"Here I go with what shit?"I snapped my head towards him

"That babying shit she's five about to be six next fucking month stop treating her like she's two."He said

"So the fuck what you acting like when I get mad at her you don't baby her, like fuck I gave her a damn lollipop after you went off over some stupid shit. Two weeks ago I got mad at her because she was running around the house after I told her not to and she winded up knocking into the plant and it fell in broke then you go out and buy her a new pair of Air Forces, new pair of Huaraches, and a pair of fucking Yeezys. I DON'T EVEN FUCKING HAVE YEEZYS, WHY IN THE FUCK DOES MY FIVE YEAR OLD CHILD HAVE A PAIR OF YEEZYS?"I snapped

After that he just shut up but kept giving me a evil look.

"Exactly always on some bullshit but don't realize you be doing the same thing but worst."I said turning the volume up on the radio

Right now Kendrick Lamar U was playing and I just relate to this song so much you don't even understand.

Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated
Loving you is complicated

I place blame when you still
Place shame when you still
Feel like you ain't shit
Feel like you don't feel, confidence in yourself
Breakin' on marble floors
Watchin' anonymous strangers tellin' me that I'm yours
But you ain't shit I'm convinced your talent's nothin' special
What can I blame him for
Nigga I can name several
Situation had stopped with your little sister bakin'
A baby inside, just a teenager, where your patience
Where was your antennas, where was the influence you speak of
You preached in front of 100, 000 but never reached her
I fuckin' tell you, you fuckin' failure you ain't no leader
I never liked you, forever despise you I don't need you
The world don't need you, don't let them deceive you
Numbers lie too, fuck your pride too, that's for dedication
Thought money would change you, made you more complacent
I fuckin' hate you, I hope you embrace it

Then the last part of the song is definitely true.

The world'll know money can't stop a suicidal weakness